[ part of sam expects the pushback - mostly because that’s what he’s used to getting. trauma and guilt and pain all have a tendency to work themselves into the part of the brain that’s hardest to put in words.
the pause that dean takes is expected, but when he shoots out the arm, that’s when sam’s stomach tightens. because he was right - something is wrong, something that he’s missed. whether dean expects it or not, sam ends up reaching out to the outstretched arm, wrapping his palm under dean’s arm and turning it a bit more over. just to get a look, to get a better idea of what’s this is, so if anything he can recall the mark.
i screwed up he says, and the words are thick. sam’s brows lift. because there is guilt, there are mistakes, and then there is whatever shadow dean’s got strapped to his back. he lets go of his arm and turns just a hair more towards dean.
he’s done this for just long enough that it’s instinct, now, to to take special care when someone sounds like that. ] Whoa, man, back up a second. What do you mean more time? You plan on going somewhere?
[ because sam’s known dean, or at least has liked to think he has. he’s also known these last few months haven’t been easy - but hell, they haven’t been easy on anyone. this is different, though, and sam’s still working on finding his footing in it. ]
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the pause that dean takes is expected, but when he shoots out the arm, that’s when sam’s stomach tightens. because he was right - something is wrong, something that he’s missed. whether dean expects it or not, sam ends up reaching out to the outstretched arm, wrapping his palm under dean’s arm and turning it a bit more over. just to get a look, to get a better idea of what’s this is, so if anything he can recall the mark.
i screwed up he says, and the words are thick. sam’s brows lift. because there is guilt, there are mistakes, and then there is whatever shadow dean’s got strapped to his back. he lets go of his arm and turns just a hair more towards dean.
he’s done this for just long enough that it’s instinct, now, to to take special care when someone sounds like that. ] Whoa, man, back up a second. What do you mean more time? You plan on going somewhere?
[ because sam’s known dean, or at least has liked to think he has. he’s also known these last few months haven’t been easy - but hell, they haven’t been easy on anyone. this is different, though, and sam’s still working on finding his footing in it. ]