[ She shakes her head a little. Wouldn't she love for it to be that easy, but no. Between whatever the blob left in her head and this extent of connection, she's had two weeks of peace in almost six months. ]
It doesn't know anything, not really. It's not like us, it doesn't have those kinds of thoughts. It's just... it's all feelin'. Emotions. It's angry and scared and lonely and sad. Imagine you could only feel one thing at a time, with every fuckin' fiber of your bein', and you can't use any logic 'cause you don't understand the idea. That's what the Singularity is.
[ Ironically, in this exhaustion, she's better able to articulate what it is than she ever has been before. But she thinks Jesper needs to understand deeper than he does, the way that Rhy is able to. Because then he'll know what she's going through. ]
I don't know if the connections are breakin' up, or if there's somethin' blockin' 'em. I know they sound the same, but they really ain't. I don't even know if the kidnappers are doin' it on purpose. It could just be a side effect they don't know about. That's the thing. I can only sorta... direct the Singularity while it tries to find 'em. Keep it on track, keep it calm. Help it narrow down the focus.
[ She actually is beginning to believe that the wall that separates her conscious from the Singularity's is weakening. Beginning to crumble. But getting them back matters far more. She will let herself disappear entirely if it gets Geralt and Ciri back.
All she can do is shrug. ] I mean, they're underground, for sure. Could just be somethin' that already lived there. That's probably better for us, than if they moved a monster there. That's what I drew. If it lives in any specific place, we could use that thing to narrow down, right?
[ As to why, well. She doesn't have a clue. She doubts it's as simple as murder for fun. They did too much, expended too much effort for it to be so stupid. This is something much more serious. But even with her particular experiences, Julie doesn't know what more serious might be. ]
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It doesn't know anything, not really. It's not like us, it doesn't have those kinds of thoughts. It's just... it's all feelin'. Emotions. It's angry and scared and lonely and sad. Imagine you could only feel one thing at a time, with every fuckin' fiber of your bein', and you can't use any logic 'cause you don't understand the idea. That's what the Singularity is.
[ Ironically, in this exhaustion, she's better able to articulate what it is than she ever has been before. But she thinks Jesper needs to understand deeper than he does, the way that Rhy is able to. Because then he'll know what she's going through. ]
I don't know if the connections are breakin' up, or if there's somethin' blockin' 'em. I know they sound the same, but they really ain't. I don't even know if the kidnappers are doin' it on purpose. It could just be a side effect they don't know about. That's the thing. I can only sorta... direct the Singularity while it tries to find 'em. Keep it on track, keep it calm. Help it narrow down the focus.
[ She actually is beginning to believe that the wall that separates her conscious from the Singularity's is weakening. Beginning to crumble. But getting them back matters far more. She will let herself disappear entirely if it gets Geralt and Ciri back.
All she can do is shrug. ] I mean, they're underground, for sure. Could just be somethin' that already lived there. That's probably better for us, than if they moved a monster there. That's what I drew. If it lives in any specific place, we could use that thing to narrow down, right?
[ As to why, well. She doesn't have a clue. She doubts it's as simple as murder for fun. They did too much, expended too much effort for it to be so stupid. This is something much more serious. But even with her particular experiences, Julie doesn't know what more serious might be. ]