[Jayden does his best to hold still, but between his general trembling and the reflexive urge to pull away, Blake's right to be expecting him to move. He curls the fingers of his right hand into the torn, bloody fabric of his own shirt, looking away from the impromptu surgery attempt.
He sucks in a sharp breath as Blake starts his work, but it hurts less than the ritual itself did, and it's worth it to get these things out. They're not supposed to be there. This shouldn't be happening. None of this should even be possible.]
D'you... Does this seem as insane t'you as it does to me?
[The words are more automatic than thought out, a little breathless between the pain and ever-present stress and anxiety, and although there's still a part of him that's telling him to get himself together and keep his thoughts to himself, the effort that would take is far beyond him at this point.]
This sorta' thing doesn't happen. N-Not the getting left in a pit to die thing, that does happen, but the... The rest of it. An' no one's sayin' anything about how crazy it is, so maybe it's just me who can't...
[Who can't understand this, and process it, and be able to adapt and deal with it. Those had always been things he was good at before, even when dealing with the reality-altering effects of the ARI and the consequences of its use, but the shock of this situation since the ritual has completely destroyed the delicate balance he'd managed to maintain.]
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He sucks in a sharp breath as Blake starts his work, but it hurts less than the ritual itself did, and it's worth it to get these things out. They're not supposed to be there. This shouldn't be happening. None of this should even be possible.]
D'you... Does this seem as insane t'you as it does to me?
[The words are more automatic than thought out, a little breathless between the pain and ever-present stress and anxiety, and although there's still a part of him that's telling him to get himself together and keep his thoughts to himself, the effort that would take is far beyond him at this point.]
This sorta' thing doesn't happen. N-Not the getting left in a pit to die thing, that does happen, but the... The rest of it. An' no one's sayin' anything about how crazy it is, so maybe it's just me who can't...
[Who can't understand this, and process it, and be able to adapt and deal with it. Those had always been things he was good at before, even when dealing with the reality-altering effects of the ARI and the consequences of its use, but the shock of this situation since the ritual has completely destroyed the delicate balance he'd managed to maintain.]