Every part of me is restless. [That part is an easy and simple truth to vocalize. The rest is harder.
But Viktor should know. And perhaps he might have perspective that can help.]
The last time I was like this was following the worst thing that befell me. Which somehow wasn't murdering my father.
[The statement isn't allowed to hang in the air for once. This is the fourth time Alucard has shared the story with anyone. It is becoming not easier, but to know who to trust with the information.]
Before Thorne pulled me to this place, my trust was betrayed by two people who I thought cared for me, within an intimate setting. I killed in self defense, but impaled their bodies and left them on my front lawn as a statement. I went through every emotion. Found myself depleted, then took refuge in anger and loneliness until that's the only thing I felt. And before that took hold, this state happened.
cw: sexual assault; impalement
But Viktor should know. And perhaps he might have perspective that can help.]
The last time I was like this was following the worst thing that befell me. Which somehow wasn't murdering my father.
[The statement isn't allowed to hang in the air for once. This is the fourth time Alucard has shared the story with anyone. It is becoming not easier, but to know who to trust with the information.]
Before Thorne pulled me to this place, my trust was betrayed by two people who I thought cared for me, within an intimate setting. I killed in self defense, but impaled their bodies and left them on my front lawn as a statement. I went through every emotion. Found myself depleted, then took refuge in anger and loneliness until that's the only thing I felt. And before that took hold, this state happened.