Reason and regret rarely balance each other out in these cases. But I think you already knew that.
[Alucard woudln't have asked otherwise.
There is no part of the dhampir that does not doubt he made the right choice. Not for the sake of Wallachia, but for his own father's sake. The world's longest suicide note, after all.
A part of Alucard still dwells in those last moments though. The realization of what his father was doing, how it seemed that perhaps he might be brought back from the brink of madness. That maybe they could learn to live together in Lisa's absence after all, the world still in tact.
He doesn't fold in on himself. Alucard does close his eyes though, silence settling in like a layer of snow. Besides, what else does one say to any of this?
At least he knows how to trade in silences with Geralt. Being forced into a small room with others will lend itself to that.]
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[Alucard woudln't have asked otherwise.
There is no part of the dhampir that does not doubt he made the right choice. Not for the sake of Wallachia, but for his own father's sake. The world's longest suicide note, after all.
A part of Alucard still dwells in those last moments though. The realization of what his father was doing, how it seemed that perhaps he might be brought back from the brink of madness. That maybe they could learn to live together in Lisa's absence after all, the world still in tact.
He doesn't fold in on himself. Alucard does close his eyes though, silence settling in like a layer of snow. Besides, what else does one say to any of this?
At least he knows how to trade in silences with Geralt. Being forced into a small room with others will lend itself to that.]