He's not wrong there. Matt can't help but wonder if what he plans would work. There's nothing wrong with preparing though especially since he doesn't want to be a soldier too.
"I keep hoping that maybe it won't happen. But I think that's being too soft hearted. I need to stop that especially after everything."
Altaïr shakes his head at that, though his faintly troubled expression remains. "No. It's good to have hope. Without hope, how can we strive for a better outcome at all?"
He understands the thought, though. Hope may be necessary, but it is not sufficient, and relying only on it will lead nowhere good.
"It may be that we need to shift our thinking, and those of us who have plans for the future, expand them," he says after a moment. "I won't claim that the common nature of our arrival here is enough for brotherhood, but it's enough for me to give a damn about happens to us. All of us."
He feels the same when it comes to the other Summoned. Even if he doesn't know everyone, he knows enough to care, to want to make sure that they're all safe. That hope extends over to the natives here who might just get caught in the middle.
He knows he can't save everyone but that doesn't stop him from trying. He rubs his chin.
"I don't think we're all ever gonna be on the same page but I think we can agree that we want to keep each other out of trouble and to stop anyone else from...dying."
"I wouldn't call it likely that we'd be able to achieve that. It's no less important that we try."
He's certain Matt already understands both statements, though. Losses are to be exepected, whether that means loss of life or something else — and they've all lost things just by being here. But if the Summoned were so ready to lie down and accept an inevitable fate, they wouldn't be capable of acting as the weapons he suspects their 'hosts' want them to be.
"What about you?" he asks. "Any thoughts on your next steps, once you've fully recovered?"
"I have a lot of thoughts. I just don't know where to really start."
He's got some recovery time left to think about it but still. He laughs, shakes his head.
"I'm not usually this indecisive. I want to do something with the legal knowledge I have. It helpe with the Libertas attack so I thought I might look into opening something more permanent."
"Better to be indecisive than to act in haste to poor results."
He should know. It doesn't mean he doesn't sympathize with the sentiment, though.
"I'm no expert on legal scholarship in any nation, but for what it's worth, I think that could be an interesting venture," he says. "It's good to help the people who need it. And who knows, maybe it would aid in the common folk seeing us as something other than an unknowable collections of 'others.'"
That's one of his hopes for doing what he wants to do. The Summoned might not have much need for legal help but the recent bombing of Libertas showed him that those who were native to Cadens and other places did.
"I don't know if they're going to want me in the military considering the blind thing. Not that I want to join up but it would make me feel like I'm contributing and you never know when someone might need the help."
It's been some time since they teamed up against the undead, but Altaïr still remembers vividly. It had been impressive enough without knowing of Matt's apparent blindness.
"I wouldn't recommend it. You're capable of helping as you are — you've done so already. Joining the military would only constrain your choices."
He laughs. "I don't think I've ever had a vacation. But extended leisure time would be nice, yes. I suppose we could journey to Aquila and not come back."
They won't, though. Not the two of them, and not most of their compatriots, he's sure. However the Summoned may differ individually, none of them seem to embrace sloth as a vice.
"It probably depends how committed they are to our freedom of choice. Or the illusion of it."
He has to wonder which option would win out in the end. It's even possible that leadership in Cadens might believe they support the former, but if push came to shove, give in to the latter.
"It's a moot point anyway." He chuckles and shakes his head. "I'm sure I would enjoy such a jaunt at first. But I'd soon start crawling up the walls without something to do with myself."
It's enough right now tha the's not able to do as much as he's used to with his hands still healing. He's done his best to restrain himself and to not push it because he doesn't want to cause permanent damage.
But it's hard.
"I can't sit still for that long. It's not natural."
Oh, does he relate. They may come from very different worlds, but in this, Altaïr is certain he and Matt see eye to eye. So to speak.
"Unnatural and unsatisfying. So we'll have to keep on as we are and keep an eye out for military action, rather than put them to the test by vacationing." Ha. He raises his glass in a mock toast. "Until then, I suppose there are worse things to do than share a drink."
Share a drink and commiserate. It's one of the better things that he's gotten to do in the past few months so he'll take it. He'll share a drink and pretend like things are just fine.
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He's not wrong there. Matt can't help but wonder if what he plans would work. There's nothing wrong with preparing though especially since he doesn't want to be a soldier too.
"I keep hoping that maybe it won't happen. But I think that's being too soft hearted. I need to stop that especially after everything."
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He understands the thought, though. Hope may be necessary, but it is not sufficient, and relying only on it will lead nowhere good.
"It may be that we need to shift our thinking, and those of us who have plans for the future, expand them," he says after a moment. "I won't claim that the common nature of our arrival here is enough for brotherhood, but it's enough for me to give a damn about happens to us. All of us."
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He feels the same when it comes to the other Summoned. Even if he doesn't know everyone, he knows enough to care, to want to make sure that they're all safe. That hope extends over to the natives here who might just get caught in the middle.
He knows he can't save everyone but that doesn't stop him from trying. He rubs his chin.
"I don't think we're all ever gonna be on the same page but I think we can agree that we want to keep each other out of trouble and to stop anyone else from...dying."
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He's certain Matt already understands both statements, though. Losses are to be exepected, whether that means loss of life or something else — and they've all lost things just by being here. But if the Summoned were so ready to lie down and accept an inevitable fate, they wouldn't be capable of acting as the weapons he suspects their 'hosts' want them to be.
"What about you?" he asks. "Any thoughts on your next steps, once you've fully recovered?"
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He's got some recovery time left to think about it but still. He laughs, shakes his head.
"I'm not usually this indecisive. I want to do something with the legal knowledge I have. It helpe with the Libertas attack so I thought I might look into opening something more permanent."
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He should know. It doesn't mean he doesn't sympathize with the sentiment, though.
"I'm no expert on legal scholarship in any nation, but for what it's worth, I think that could be an interesting venture," he says. "It's good to help the people who need it. And who knows, maybe it would aid in the common folk seeing us as something other than an unknowable collections of 'others.'"
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That's one of his hopes for doing what he wants to do. The Summoned might not have much need for legal help but the recent bombing of Libertas showed him that those who were native to Cadens and other places did.
"I don't know if they're going to want me in the military considering the blind thing. Not that I want to join up but it would make me feel like I'm contributing and you never know when someone might need the help."
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It's been some time since they teamed up against the undead, but Altaïr still remembers vividly. It had been impressive enough without knowing of Matt's apparent blindness.
"I wouldn't recommend it. You're capable of helping as you are — you've done so already. Joining the military would only constrain your choices."
Not that he's biased.
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Matt can't help but bring light to the whole thing. He's not wrong, he's not meant for the military and he doesn't want to join up anyway.
"Let's just hope this place doesn't turn us into draft dodgers."
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"If they do, we'll take the steps we need to," he says. "We've already faced worse."
And may again. But in this, he'll try not to be pessimistic.
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And they would probably continue to face worse. That wasn't an all together great thought but a realistic one.
"Guess a nice beach vacation is out of the question after what just happened, huh? That would have been a nice change of pace."
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They won't, though. Not the two of them, and not most of their compatriots, he's sure. However the Summoned may differ individually, none of them seem to embrace sloth as a vice.
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That's not a terrible idea. He's been to Aquila a few times for professional reasons but never really checked it out.
"Wonder what would happen if we did try that. Would they come and get us or just leave us there?"
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He has to wonder which option would win out in the end. It's even possible that leadership in Cadens might believe they support the former, but if push came to shove, give in to the latter.
"It's a moot point anyway." He chuckles and shakes his head. "I'm sure I would enjoy such a jaunt at first. But I'd soon start crawling up the walls without something to do with myself."
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It's enough right now tha the's not able to do as much as he's used to with his hands still healing. He's done his best to restrain himself and to not push it because he doesn't want to cause permanent damage.
But it's hard.
"I can't sit still for that long. It's not natural."
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"Unnatural and unsatisfying. So we'll have to keep on as we are and keep an eye out for military action, rather than put them to the test by vacationing." Ha. He raises his glass in a mock toast. "Until then, I suppose there are worse things to do than share a drink."
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Share a drink and commiserate. It's one of the better things that he's gotten to do in the past few months so he'll take it. He'll share a drink and pretend like things are just fine.
Because they are. For the moment.