Istredd takes that in without comment right away, absorbing, he normally needs a few seconds to sit with something. He's working on impulsivity like Lucifer suggested. He's also not entirely certain how he feels. They were all in a rough spot. Lucifer was getting desperate. He attacked Kyle, that's how far it got. He wishes his stomach wasn't turning so much over the blood and gore. It's frustrating.

"I wish you wouldn't keep these things from me," he says finally. "I think I understand why, and I'm not going to press, but I like being in the loop with you." A simple stated explanation and he may have done the same if the positions were switched. He already said he'd kill for Lucifer. It would be hypocritical to have a problem with it now.

"I would touch you or squeeze your hand, but I think if I get too much of that on me I'll be sick." See, good thing he didn't offer to help with it! He knows his limitations as frustrating as they are.