Istredd is trying to ignore the reality of getting himself dirty like this but he is doing fine, he isn't feeling uncomfortable about it. It helps that having Lucifer this close makes him not think about anything else. Or maybe he's just getting more used to it himself.

There are some things they are trying to change about each other, but it's not about fundamental personality traits or because they don't like it. It is more about piecing themselves into each other's lives and encouraging change where it is right. Opening up to one another and finding comfort in understanding.

Istredd has been warned about Lucifer's dark side more than once, including from Lucifer himself, and he always says some form of 'I know.'

He kisses Lucifer again, hungry and playful at the same time, his hands trailing blood through his hair, curling on his neck. It's one of my favorite things about you. The darkness, parting ways for beautiful light at times, powerful and unshakeable. He stopped questioning his attraction and the reasons for it. It is a fact.

It did feel good, he admits. The fight.

The other ones were easy and he was satisfied that he was doing well, but not cheating with his magic did make it more challenging. And the surge of pride that Lucifer gave him was satisfying too. Maybe he did need an outlet and to put a little fight into keeping alive.