[ His gaze grows sharp. Not directed at Sam. Just. Geralt sighs, shaking his head. ]
It's not that. [ As he said, he will talk to Dean eventually. He simply hasn't because he's not yet untangled his feelings. What he wants to tell Dean as a result.
In part, he isn't certain how much he wants to tell Sam, either. It's nothing to do with the man. Only that his conversations with Dean were private. Things he knows Dean would not have confessed to anyone else. And yet, with Sam asking, with all of it weighing on his mind, he finds himself speaking. ]
You don't know him as I do. Before the Mark consumed him thoroughly, he asked me to kill him. When he threatened Ciri, I nearly did. In the end, I chose to save him. I don't regret it. But I know he'll believe he doesn't deserve a second chance.
[ Geralt does not know if he's the person to convince Dean that he does. To navigate the complicated guilt and horror that Dean must be feeling. He's too close to it on both ends, between Ciri and his friendship with Dean. ]
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It's not that. [ As he said, he will talk to Dean eventually. He simply hasn't because he's not yet untangled his feelings. What he wants to tell Dean as a result.
In part, he isn't certain how much he wants to tell Sam, either. It's nothing to do with the man. Only that his conversations with Dean were private. Things he knows Dean would not have confessed to anyone else. And yet, with Sam asking, with all of it weighing on his mind, he finds himself speaking. ]
You don't know him as I do. Before the Mark consumed him thoroughly, he asked me to kill him. When he threatened Ciri, I nearly did. In the end, I chose to save him. I don't regret it. But I know he'll believe he doesn't deserve a second chance.
[ Geralt does not know if he's the person to convince Dean that he does. To navigate the complicated guilt and horror that Dean must be feeling. He's too close to it on both ends, between Ciri and his friendship with Dean. ]