[The funny thing is he'd end up being a dutiful student in that regard. He's never had to rely on magic. Getting into the finicky details is something he hasn't had to take into consideration. That he's been this invested in learning as it is, for him, is impressive. It feels like a crutch. Like he isn't strong enough without the use of Abraxan magic.
But that would mean he'd be reliant on her and while he boasted her not being the teacher he needs, he also just doesn't want to put that power in her hands.
Funny, he thinks when he arrived here she was the one he wanted to be on even ground with. But after Wilhelm's tarot-card fiasco, and every domino since until it hit its crescendo, he's been withdrawn from her.
That constant problem of thinking someone isn't better than him. The difference between her and Istredd is that she would, very likely, push that she was.
He doesn't need that.
Because she isn't looking at him, she can't see him mouthing an echo of the words in a mimicked annoyance. She's still the most valuable asset in Thorne because of her closeness with the queen and the best Lucifer can do with her now is avoid pissing her off to the point she tries to get rid of him.
He does see Yennefer's point, to be fair. However, these are in fact only for defensive magic. Mat will likely, still, be in his planning for the offensive spells--as he's aiming for projectiles--though it's been awhile since they're really spoken about it. But the shields? Who cares. He'd give them to his interested soldier trainees if they thought his work was anything more to value from their own mages, but that was unlikely.
He grins.] Of course I'm trying to draw attention to them, they are defensive, useful magicks after all. [He pulls another butterfly and activates the brief lightning shield, not anything to show off about but to prove that it really was just that. He smirks. Because yes. He does want to draw attention to what he can do. What he's openly working on.
What Thorne sees.
All illusion.
Is it making working on everything else take longer? Yes. Does he think it's worth it? Yes.]
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But that would mean he'd be reliant on her and while he boasted her not being the teacher he needs, he also just doesn't want to put that power in her hands.
Funny, he thinks when he arrived here she was the one he wanted to be on even ground with. But after Wilhelm's tarot-card fiasco, and every domino since until it hit its crescendo, he's been withdrawn from her.
That constant problem of thinking someone isn't better than him. The difference between her and Istredd is that she would, very likely, push that she was.
He doesn't need that.
Because she isn't looking at him, she can't see him mouthing an echo of the words in a mimicked annoyance. She's still the most valuable asset in Thorne because of her closeness with the queen and the best Lucifer can do with her now is avoid pissing her off to the point she tries to get rid of him.
He does see Yennefer's point, to be fair. However, these are in fact only for defensive magic. Mat will likely, still, be in his planning for the offensive spells--as he's aiming for projectiles--though it's been awhile since they're really spoken about it. But the shields? Who cares. He'd give them to his interested soldier trainees if they thought his work was anything more to value from their own mages, but that was unlikely.
He grins.] Of course I'm trying to draw attention to them, they are defensive, useful magicks after all. [He pulls another butterfly and activates the brief lightning shield, not anything to show off about but to prove that it really was just that. He smirks. Because yes. He does want to draw attention to what he can do. What he's openly working on.
What Thorne sees.
All illusion.
Is it making working on everything else take longer? Yes. Does he think it's worth it? Yes.]