I was there the longest, one of the people who stayed behind and nearly drowned. Honestly, it's a miracle I'm alive, I was stabbed during the escape and the wound got infected. The willpower to live is a powerful force though.
[ Istredd can talk about it now with only a mild amount of emotional pain. He doubts trauma like that is going to go anywhere soon, and it's not as if it's been that long. He was dying slowly, it made for a lot of reflection, and it did lead to him telling Lucifer his feelings so there was some good that came from it. He is not completely without emotion when he talks about it though, there's tension in his voice. ]
It's part of why I felt I had to talk to her. I wanted to understand.
[ Istredd is still obsessed with several facts that he wants to know about that ordeal, but they're not things that Josselyn could fully answer either. He pushed her hard, knowing it was probably the last he could get before she died. He does think listening to her helped him, big picture. Having explanations of some kind for a curious mind like his helped.
He shakes his head. ]
I do know what you mean. In fact, I saw it very similarly to what happened after the Conjunction too.
[ It's actually surprising to find someone who makes a leap like that. Despite the conversation topic, he smiles faintly, blue eyes fixed on Jaskier. Who seems, in an odd way, like a kin spirit. Someone capable of looking at the big picture. ]
I can't imagine the fact that we didn't want to be here either matters. We're here, powerful and knowledgeable. And if it turns out that the former Summoned turned into gods, it means ... they were an invading force, of a kind. And we could be perceived that way too.
[ Outsiders come in and eventually become gods? It's absorption of culture, intentional or not. Istredd sighs. ]
For those of us who want to stay here? My concern is that we have to be considerate that it'll take more than a few years to fit in. And if we spend that time trying to upend their way of life, what good are we really doing here?
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[ Istredd can talk about it now with only a mild amount of emotional pain. He doubts trauma like that is going to go anywhere soon, and it's not as if it's been that long. He was dying slowly, it made for a lot of reflection, and it did lead to him telling Lucifer his feelings so there was some good that came from it. He is not completely without emotion when he talks about it though, there's tension in his voice. ]
It's part of why I felt I had to talk to her. I wanted to understand.
[ Istredd is still obsessed with several facts that he wants to know about that ordeal, but they're not things that Josselyn could fully answer either. He pushed her hard, knowing it was probably the last he could get before she died. He does think listening to her helped him, big picture. Having explanations of some kind for a curious mind like his helped.
He shakes his head. ]
I do know what you mean. In fact, I saw it very similarly to what happened after the Conjunction too.
[ It's actually surprising to find someone who makes a leap like that. Despite the conversation topic, he smiles faintly, blue eyes fixed on Jaskier. Who seems, in an odd way, like a kin spirit. Someone capable of looking at the big picture. ]
I can't imagine the fact that we didn't want to be here either matters. We're here, powerful and knowledgeable. And if it turns out that the former Summoned turned into gods, it means ... they were an invading force, of a kind. And we could be perceived that way too.
[ Outsiders come in and eventually become gods? It's absorption of culture, intentional or not. Istredd sighs. ]
For those of us who want to stay here? My concern is that we have to be considerate that it'll take more than a few years to fit in. And if we spend that time trying to upend their way of life, what good are we really doing here?