Yennefer knows that Ciri doesn't much care for Istredd; and truthfully, Yennefer could understand why. Istredd didn't much care if he was liked, was too genuinely enthusiastic about his interests to know where they might lead him, and whether or not she knows of the specifics, she would have been able to tell just about anyone that if the right combination of events had gone down, there was no hope for him. Still, Yennefer shakes her head - it's not about whether or not she got a say, because they've all had that say taken from them throughout their lives. If this was done for the sake of keeping her safe-
In time, Yennefer will recognize the hypocritical nature of her very thoughts. Because Istredd is correct, Yennefer would feel the same way if it were her, but in this moment she doesn't think her thought process is about her. It's about Ciri, it's about the lengths she's gone through to keep her safe from where she is and how it has started to feel like she's the only one who is, how she and Geralt both agreed that if Istredd were to become a liability then he would need to be taken care of and yet when Geralt has someone who was actively and intentionally putting Ciri at risk, he did fuck all about it. It isn't fair. More than that, it feels personal (something she will, again, recognize to be her own selfishness coming into play later) and because of that, she can't quite bring herself to let it go.
Yennefer and the sound of his voice brings a lot more than she's willing to admit back into focus. She listens, too - still, wanting to believe there's a reason. Wanting to believe it can be something so simple that she just needs to be comforted and it could ease the tightening in her chest. An easy trade, for a mage. And maybe that is part of it - maybe that is why she's having the hardest time with it at all, because she knows how it does sound like something a mage would do. That the Brotherhood would do. She remembers the feeling of watching her sisters get turned into eels, remember the way Tissaia had met her eyes when she walked away.
But he isn't wrong - it's how they're raised, and obviously something happens. Obviously, Ciri doesn't hate her the same way that she knew part of Geralt did. In Ciri's eyes, she was forgiven, but why? Yennefer still hasn't forgiven the Brotherhood for what it took from her before she knew what it meant. Why should Ciri forgive her for what she did? Or in this case, will do?
She can't help it - Istredd says he'll get over it and Yennefer can't help but snort. Shake her head. "I don't have the patience to wait for sixty years for anything, anymore." She doesn't necessarily mean for the words to come out soft, and a bit fond, but somehow they do all the same.
Yennefer takes another breath, feels the tension in her chest lessen. She hates when he's right like this.
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In time, Yennefer will recognize the hypocritical nature of her very thoughts. Because Istredd is correct, Yennefer would feel the same way if it were her, but in this moment she doesn't think her thought process is about her. It's about Ciri, it's about the lengths she's gone through to keep her safe from where she is and how it has started to feel like she's the only one who is, how she and Geralt both agreed that if Istredd were to become a liability then he would need to be taken care of and yet when Geralt has someone who was actively and intentionally putting Ciri at risk, he did fuck all about it. It isn't fair. More than that, it feels personal (something she will, again, recognize to be her own selfishness coming into play later) and because of that, she can't quite bring herself to let it go.
Yennefer and the sound of his voice brings a lot more than she's willing to admit back into focus. She listens, too - still, wanting to believe there's a reason. Wanting to believe it can be something so simple that she just needs to be comforted and it could ease the tightening in her chest. An easy trade, for a mage. And maybe that is part of it - maybe that is why she's having the hardest time with it at all, because she knows how it does sound like something a mage would do. That the Brotherhood would do. She remembers the feeling of watching her sisters get turned into eels, remember the way Tissaia had met her eyes when she walked away.
But he isn't wrong - it's how they're raised, and obviously something happens. Obviously, Ciri doesn't hate her the same way that she knew part of Geralt did. In Ciri's eyes, she was forgiven, but why? Yennefer still hasn't forgiven the Brotherhood for what it took from her before she knew what it meant. Why should Ciri forgive her for what she did? Or in this case, will do?
She can't help it - Istredd says he'll get over it and Yennefer can't help but snort. Shake her head. "I don't have the patience to wait for sixty years for anything, anymore." She doesn't necessarily mean for the words to come out soft, and a bit fond, but somehow they do all the same.
Yennefer takes another breath, feels the tension in her chest lessen. She hates when he's right like this.