The frustration is clearer than anything, the struggle strong, and he holds against the pushback.
He doesn't understand the why of it. This can help. Lucifer can't. Lucifer avoids giving any real, concrete comfort most times because he doesn't know how to work out the logistics of it and when he does stumble across something it's out of sheer dumb luck. And this sudden burst of whatever the hell is going on isn't the right time for him to figure it out!
What's you talking through it going to do? I can't say anything that's going to make this better. He sure doubts Istredd is going to stumble across the solution if he talks it out. I can't fix this with words, I may as well fix it the way I can. Why should you have to suffer through it? Why do you have to feel it? There's no reason to when you have other options!
This is Lucifer not understanding how human live through suffering all over again.
This is Lucifer who is King of Stuffing Down Trauma and ignoring it for several billion years.
What a time to still be alive, Istredd! Having a trauma-inducing memory dump and having to still put up with Lucifer and everything he is(n't).
But on a second push against his mind, he will get out. If reluctant and a little wild and maybe both of their minds are still tattered from what happened on the mountains.
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He doesn't understand the why of it. This can help. Lucifer can't. Lucifer avoids giving any real, concrete comfort most times because he doesn't know how to work out the logistics of it and when he does stumble across something it's out of sheer dumb luck. And this sudden burst of whatever the hell is going on isn't the right time for him to figure it out!
What's you talking through it going to do? I can't say anything that's going to make this better. He sure doubts Istredd is going to stumble across the solution if he talks it out. I can't fix this with words, I may as well fix it the way I can. Why should you have to suffer through it? Why do you have to feel it? There's no reason to when you have other options!
This is Lucifer not understanding how human live through suffering all over again.
This is Lucifer who is King of Stuffing Down Trauma and ignoring it for several billion years.
What a time to still be alive, Istredd! Having a trauma-inducing memory dump and having to still put up with Lucifer and everything he is(n't).
But on a second push against his mind, he will get out. If reluctant and a little wild and maybe both of their minds are still tattered from what happened on the mountains.