Fortunately Abby's opinion on early mornings is 'crime, who dare invented such a terrible thing' so it's very difficult for her to impose earlier than reasonable.

"I need to eventually get yelled at for all the shit I did, even if the shit I did worked more than it didn't." If Abby thinks through how they see her, it makes sense. She shouldn't be here, she shouldn't be involved, so she should be protected. Jesper and Inej are different, they belong in these fights because their history is fighting. But Abby doesn't... want that. She's working, slowly, to find her footing.

And then jumping off the cliff because monsters showed up.

And even if she has a pretty good argument for why she should be able to get involved, be treated like she belongs in these fights. She's still waiting to get told she's worthless. "And now everyone knows I can disappear which makes hiding a lot fucking harder. Kinda expecting Julie to just send her ancient boytoy to track me down, drag me in for lecture that's waiting."