I didn't intend to fail, no. But I was reckless. I broke our creed several times over.

[He wonders how well she could understand the depth of his failure, even if he explained the tenets of the creed in detail. It's one thing to hear they are important; another to know what they mean, and what his betrayal of them meant.]

I wasn't the one to put my blade to them, but the failure was entirely mine. It took some time for me to accept that.