There's a slight breath of relief at the fact he listens, and seems, to get it. He frames it as a friend, which she supposes makes sense as he doesn't seem the type to let those voices in. His own voice seems a bit louder than everyone else. Putting him closer to Ginny than herself.
Maybe she needed that more.
"So the bullshit that happened to me now just- gets to live in my head forever, not even paying rent." It sounded discouraging, because it was, but she said it with a defeated little scoff to say she wasn't surprised. "I know that my distrust of adults is cause of- me. My world, and it's bullshit. But a lot of adults had gone out of their way to not make it worse here."
Some gone, some here, she never classified Claude as an adult because it's really easy to forget that. But they would listen to her, maybe coax her out of her worst traits, but never demand her behave one way or another.
"I don't really like pretending to be some polite drone. Acting okay when I'm not, being nice when I don't like someone," Which is how all this came back up, she's not good at faking happy. She's good at being herself, she can lean in one direction or another. Chaos or helpful, caring or blunt. But asking her to put on a mask just fucking backfires. She's still her, under whatever it is. "So when the most famous summoned in Cadens wanted me to just- be polite and act like his friend I just- couldn't do it."
Not when he said every possible thing wrong to her, hit every trip wire, every thing that'd piss her off. And 'most famous summoned in Cadens' was said with such absolute venom the words probably could melt steel.
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Maybe she needed that more.
"So the bullshit that happened to me now just- gets to live in my head forever, not even paying rent." It sounded discouraging, because it was, but she said it with a defeated little scoff to say she wasn't surprised. "I know that my distrust of adults is cause of- me. My world, and it's bullshit. But a lot of adults had gone out of their way to not make it worse here."
Some gone, some here, she never classified Claude as an adult because it's really easy to forget that. But they would listen to her, maybe coax her out of her worst traits, but never demand her behave one way or another.
"I don't really like pretending to be some polite drone. Acting okay when I'm not, being nice when I don't like someone," Which is how all this came back up, she's not good at faking happy. She's good at being herself, she can lean in one direction or another. Chaos or helpful, caring or blunt. But asking her to put on a mask just fucking backfires. She's still her, under whatever it is. "So when the most famous summoned in Cadens wanted me to just- be polite and act like his friend I just- couldn't do it."
Not when he said every possible thing wrong to her, hit every trip wire, every thing that'd piss her off. And 'most famous summoned in Cadens' was said with such absolute venom the words probably could melt steel.