In the end, it doesn't really matter what is normal or should be normal... if I don't get used to it, I'll only be a weight on everyone. I can't just fall to pieces over the happenings here.
[ Relena won't allow herself to. She won't even let herself cry anymore without scolding. If she's not strong, hearty, she can't be a leader. She can't accomplish anything. ]
If he's being truthful, that seems to be the case. Right now, I don't see why he'd lie about it, but I want to know more about everything before I feel too sure about any of it.
[ She knows better to get her hopes up too high, but she has been holding on to the belief that leaving was within the realm of possibilities. She had people she had to see again. It keeps her looking forward.
She does, after all, want to believe in the man who saved her. She just doesn't want to be caught off-guard down the line by betrayal, either. ]
Probably not, and transferring our power to them would give them an unfair advantage over the Singularity. They'd essentially own it, in as much as it can be owned. Still, murdering your own people that way just to accomplish it... It's not like that isn't the essence of war, but I don't feel wrong for being disgusted by it. Besides, at least when a mobile suit explodes, the death is near-instant. This -- it was awful. He was suffering immensely. She didn't flinch.
[ It might be seen as a merit of her strength and leadership to make hard decisions without shying away, but it is not the type of leadership Relena believes in. She's been compassionate in her approach to politics since the day her name and identity dragged her onto center stage. She hopes to remain that way.
She shakes her head. ]
It's times like these that I wish I still had the same influence that I had at home. It's something I can't stand to let continue. It's always too easy to use those you're meant to protect like pawns. She didn't want others to know of it, so I'm sure that man's family will never know what happened, if he had one at all.
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[ Relena won't allow herself to. She won't even let herself cry anymore without scolding. If she's not strong, hearty, she can't be a leader. She can't accomplish anything. ]
If he's being truthful, that seems to be the case. Right now, I don't see why he'd lie about it, but I want to know more about everything before I feel too sure about any of it.
[ She knows better to get her hopes up too high, but she has been holding on to the belief that leaving was within the realm of possibilities. She had people she had to see again. It keeps her looking forward.
She does, after all, want to believe in the man who saved her. She just doesn't want to be caught off-guard down the line by betrayal, either. ]
Probably not, and transferring our power to them would give them an unfair advantage over the Singularity. They'd essentially own it, in as much as it can be owned. Still, murdering your own people that way just to accomplish it... It's not like that isn't the essence of war, but I don't feel wrong for being disgusted by it. Besides, at least when a mobile suit explodes, the death is near-instant. This -- it was awful. He was suffering immensely. She didn't flinch.
[ It might be seen as a merit of her strength and leadership to make hard decisions without shying away, but it is not the type of leadership Relena believes in. She's been compassionate in her approach to politics since the day her name and identity dragged her onto center stage. She hopes to remain that way.
She shakes her head. ]
It's times like these that I wish I still had the same influence that I had at home. It's something I can't stand to let continue. It's always too easy to use those you're meant to protect like pawns. She didn't want others to know of it, so I'm sure that man's family will never know what happened, if he had one at all.