[ His admission is toneless, and not entirely true. Some of this he has needed to say aloud for quite some time. Some of it, he's not ready to hear himself. It'd be like tearing down the dam holding back the flood. He doesn't know what would happen to him if he let himself remember everything, an entire life that isn't his own.
He looks away again, fixing on the place where the birds had last been watching. All of them are gone. ]
Have you been in contact with Wanda?
[ He knows, by her own admission, that she is hoping to do the same as Viktor - she had promised to speak with him when Kahlil admitted his concerns some months ago.
Unlike with Viktor, he trusts that she understands the damage that their attempt might cause if it goes wrong. And he clings to that, because the alternative is not one he wants to consider.
He didn't know Viktor very well when he first decided he might have to kill him. And now, there's only regret and uncertainty. ]
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[ His admission is toneless, and not entirely true. Some of this he has needed to say aloud for quite some time. Some of it, he's not ready to hear himself. It'd be like tearing down the dam holding back the flood. He doesn't know what would happen to him if he let himself remember everything, an entire life that isn't his own.
He looks away again, fixing on the place where the birds had last been watching. All of them are gone. ]
Have you been in contact with Wanda?
[ He knows, by her own admission, that she is hoping to do the same as Viktor - she had promised to speak with him when Kahlil admitted his concerns some months ago.
Unlike with Viktor, he trusts that she understands the damage that their attempt might cause if it goes wrong. And he clings to that, because the alternative is not one he wants to consider.
He didn't know Viktor very well when he first decided he might have to kill him. And now, there's only regret and uncertainty. ]