[ she closes her eyes, trying to let the warmth of his hands and gentle encouragement wash over her. it's hard when she can't stop hearing things, can't stop seeing things that aren't hers to see.
he says 'we can't let them control us' and river almost wants to laugh or start bawling again, because that's what she was designed for. to be controlled, used to serve the alliance's mission. it's woven through her bones, the depth of the control they exert over humanity as though it's their god-given right. ]
I don't think I am.
[ it's a quiet admission, tears still stubbornly rolling down her face even as he tries to help push the sadness away. river sniffles and looks at him with an exhaustion that can't be expressed in words. ]
But I want to be. I'll do my best.
[ 'i'll get better.' she'll try. she doesn't want it be like this forever.
with a stuttering inhale, she puts her head back on his shoulder and whispers: ]
Duìbùqǐ, xièxiè nǐ, Cassian.
[ he might recognize at least one part of the phrase from their brief lessons in chinese: thank you. ]
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he says 'we can't let them control us' and river almost wants to laugh or start bawling again, because that's what she was designed for. to be controlled, used to serve the alliance's mission. it's woven through her bones, the depth of the control they exert over humanity as though it's their god-given right. ]
I don't think I am.
[ it's a quiet admission, tears still stubbornly rolling down her face even as he tries to help push the sadness away. river sniffles and looks at him with an exhaustion that can't be expressed in words. ]
But I want to be. I'll do my best.
[ 'i'll get better.' she'll try. she doesn't want it be like this forever.
with a stuttering inhale, she puts her head back on his shoulder and whispers: ]
Duìbùqǐ, xièxiè nǐ, Cassian.
[ he might recognize at least one part of the phrase from their brief lessons in chinese: thank you. ]