[ Julia looks up at him and holds him close, leaning into the embrace, into holding onto him in the midst of this chaos. They had only just begun their relationship in the real world but he's been the person who helped center her since she arrived in Abraxas. Everything she's been dealing with hits her and she presses her head into his chest, losing all control over herself and starting to sob.
This is different from the crying she did in the TARDIS, when she was trying to keep it together and failing, and closer to how she felt when she got her Shade back and all she could feel was pain. It's the agony of the last two hundred years of bitterness that's now being supplanted with the very real agony she suffered in her actual life. She has to suffer it again so she holds onto him. At least she's not alone. ]
I'm sorry.
[ She mumbles against his chest and she kisses once to where each of his hearts would be, before looking up at him again. Tears streak across her face and she looks a mess, just as she did in the TARDIS, confessing it all to him. Julia hopes there's a time where he doesn't have to deal with her crying too much. There's just been a lot back to back.
She's so mad at herself, at what she turned into. The guilt is going to get her. ]
I don't know how long we've been in the crater. Our bodies can sustain longer than normal humans, but who knows about the others.
[ She means the other Summoned -- they may think they're gods, but many of them are just humans. They've told her that no one can live in the Horizon because your body on the outside can eventually die. ]
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This is different from the crying she did in the TARDIS, when she was trying to keep it together and failing, and closer to how she felt when she got her Shade back and all she could feel was pain. It's the agony of the last two hundred years of bitterness that's now being supplanted with the very real agony she suffered in her actual life. She has to suffer it again so she holds onto him. At least she's not alone. ]
I'm sorry.
[ She mumbles against his chest and she kisses once to where each of his hearts would be, before looking up at him again. Tears streak across her face and she looks a mess, just as she did in the TARDIS, confessing it all to him. Julia hopes there's a time where he doesn't have to deal with her crying too much. There's just been a lot back to back.
She's so mad at herself, at what she turned into. The guilt is going to get her. ]
I don't know how long we've been in the crater. Our bodies can sustain longer than normal humans, but who knows about the others.
[ She means the other Summoned -- they may think they're gods, but many of them are just humans. They've told her that no one can live in the Horizon because your body on the outside can eventually die. ]