Istredd lets his hand move around his throat. He doesn't fight back. That's who he is too. He stares at him defiantly, but also hopelessly. They did know that Lucifer could kill him, and that severing the bond probably would. They were already aware that he might tear through him if he got it all back, if he stopped caring about what he did. But even if Lucifer didn't pick him in the end, even if he may have lost him for good, it's not in him to fight back.
He told Lucifer that too. He'd let it happen.
"You did. They did. And I told you it didn't matter. I love you, and I will love you until the moment I die." He reaches up to put his hand over Lucifer's wrist where he has a grip on him, not to stop him but to touch him one last time, if this is it. Yet despite his willingness to accept his fate, he has a glowing tendril of hope too.
Despite everything, with Lucifer snarling, the beast, Istredd isn't afraid of his own death, because he believes with everything in him that Lucifer would never do it to him. He has faith in him, stupid as it may be.
"Do it if you need to. If you don't love me, if you don't want me, if you don't need me, then honestly Lucifer, what's the fucking point?"
To him, to all the things they've done to get here, to the sacrifice he just made for someone who might blow apart his mind. Istredd made his choice and he can't take it back now, so he'll keep making the same choice, as stupid as it is. This has been them from the start. Istredd with his bleeding heart right out there on his sleeve, devoted to the point of insanity, and Lucifer being forced to accept that no matter what he did, he had someone who promised never to leave.
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He told Lucifer that too. He'd let it happen.
"You did. They did. And I told you it didn't matter. I love you, and I will love you until the moment I die." He reaches up to put his hand over Lucifer's wrist where he has a grip on him, not to stop him but to touch him one last time, if this is it. Yet despite his willingness to accept his fate, he has a glowing tendril of hope too.
Despite everything, with Lucifer snarling, the beast, Istredd isn't afraid of his own death, because he believes with everything in him that Lucifer would never do it to him. He has faith in him, stupid as it may be.
"Do it if you need to. If you don't love me, if you don't want me, if you don't need me, then honestly Lucifer, what's the fucking point?"
To him, to all the things they've done to get here, to the sacrifice he just made for someone who might blow apart his mind. Istredd made his choice and he can't take it back now, so he'll keep making the same choice, as stupid as it is. This has been them from the start. Istredd with his bleeding heart right out there on his sleeve, devoted to the point of insanity, and Lucifer being forced to accept that no matter what he did, he had someone who promised never to leave.