[Now that he feels it, he remembers why he wanted to rid himself of it so badly. He thinks, maybe, if not for the fact that he's coming to understand none of this is real, he'd do it again. Reuniting with Kyle is a comfort, and though it staunches the wound, he knows now that this doesn't quite fit, not in the way Jayce did.
But maybe that isn't bad. It's different. Not a replacement, but something else.
What matters is that he isn't alone right now, and even after everything he's done to himself, Kyle still wants him. Despite being made entirely of metal and magic, Viktor is warm to the touch, and he finds himself hoping that it's not unpleasant. He's touching him, pulling him closer, and for all the others fear his augmentations, he feels none of that when Kyle's hand settles so close to his exposed heart. He shudders involuntarily, closing his eyes to focus, the intimacy slightly overwhelming and Kyle's question slightly unwelcome, despite everything.]
I don't--I'm not sure.
[The truth is that Viktor wants to be this way. He is his own greatest creation, and the thought of giving it all up--the possibility of returning to what he used to be is terrifying. Viktor seems guilty about his lie almost immediately, bowing his head in what might be guilt, for making Kyle do this. He feels the tug of the cables and the contrasting pull of a world beyond this one.]
If you leave it up to me, I won't go. You have to do it.
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But maybe that isn't bad. It's different. Not a replacement, but something else.
What matters is that he isn't alone right now, and even after everything he's done to himself, Kyle still wants him. Despite being made entirely of metal and magic, Viktor is warm to the touch, and he finds himself hoping that it's not unpleasant. He's touching him, pulling him closer, and for all the others fear his augmentations, he feels none of that when Kyle's hand settles so close to his exposed heart. He shudders involuntarily, closing his eyes to focus, the intimacy slightly overwhelming and Kyle's question slightly unwelcome, despite everything.]
I don't--I'm not sure.
[The truth is that Viktor wants to be this way. He is his own greatest creation, and the thought of giving it all up--the possibility of returning to what he used to be is terrifying. Viktor seems guilty about his lie almost immediately, bowing his head in what might be guilt, for making Kyle do this. He feels the tug of the cables and the contrasting pull of a world beyond this one.]
If you leave it up to me, I won't go. You have to do it.