[ He doesn’t remember when that black hole of loneliness formed in the pit of his stomach, but it’s been there for a long time. And no, his chaotic attempts to reconnect do nothing to fill it, because no matter how many time he may force his company upon them, those friends drift off once more, leaving Eddie in an endless loop of trying to reel them back in, over and over again.
He remembers what it was like to be frightened all the time, to feel his chest tighten with anxiety at every sound or movement. He would like to say that he’s overcome that, and in some ways he has, but it’s a feeling he relives every time he think about losing the people he’s grown to care about.
It’s sad, really, but he hides it well, behind his smiles and his laughter. It’s still not difficult to find if you look closely enough. ]
No, it isn’t, is it? But yeah, it absolutely saved me this time. Pulled me right back from the very brink, all thanks to you.
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He remembers what it was like to be frightened all the time, to feel his chest tighten with anxiety at every sound or movement. He would like to say that he’s overcome that, and in some ways he has, but it’s a feeling he relives every time he think about losing the people he’s grown to care about.
It’s sad, really, but he hides it well, behind his smiles and his laughter. It’s still not difficult to find if you look closely enough. ]
No, it isn’t, is it? But yeah, it absolutely saved me this time. Pulled me right back from the very brink, all thanks to you.