[ as he commands her to wake up, something cracks, both inside her and briefly in the sky. she can see it above her in the peripheral, but she refuses to look upward. ]
[ there is a lot about this life that annabeth is very proud of, and there is a family here among the other gods that makes her feel whole. when cassian says this isn't their lives, the feeling that slips in through the cracks is abandonment. it's people leaving. it's cassian right now trying to tell her it isn't real, and it feels personal in a way he certainly doesn't intend but she can't help taking as such. ]
[ she takes a few more steps further away from him. ]
Then tell me what you think is real instead! Because right now it just seems like you're trying to piss me off enough to leave.
[ he isn't and she knows that, but it's much easier to lash out, which feels like a very, very old defense mechanism. she's started by it, and wondering how he managed to pull it out of her. ]
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[ there is a lot about this life that annabeth is very proud of, and there is a family here among the other gods that makes her feel whole. when cassian says this isn't their lives, the feeling that slips in through the cracks is abandonment. it's people leaving. it's cassian right now trying to tell her it isn't real, and it feels personal in a way he certainly doesn't intend but she can't help taking as such. ]
[ she takes a few more steps further away from him. ]
Then tell me what you think is real instead! Because right now it just seems like you're trying to piss me off enough to leave.
[ he isn't and she knows that, but it's much easier to lash out, which feels like a very, very old defense mechanism. she's started by it, and wondering how he managed to pull it out of her. ]