The question isn't funny and yet she laughs, feeling on the edge of something hysterical before pulling herself together.
"What is my mood? Christ if I know. Something dark, I suppose. I've never made a 'deeply upset because of a magic mind game' blend, but I'm beginning to think it's the first one I should've ever come up with. Try the black tea with elderberries." Claire will most certainly go through her own possessions with a more discerning eye; plants that are too damaged to re-pot can still be broken down for use, just not the way that she'd intended.
"I was actively trying not to remember even while it was happening. And I know that it's because I'm tired of being alone, I'm tired of waiting for the moment I'll finally have my idea of happiness. I don't know if it's because I broke some rule of time, but it consistently seems to be against Jamie and I. Snatches of it are all we get together, just enough to feel heartwrenching when we're forced apart again."
Her back is to Michael as she moves around the living room. "'If Jamie arrives tomorrow' is the reasoning I've used for plenty of things. Now I have to apply it to not continuing a three-hundred-year relationship that wasn't even real."
And yet, that love still feels as real as any she's ever felt for Jamie, which makes her feel as though she should wear a scarlet A.
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"What is my mood? Christ if I know. Something dark, I suppose. I've never made a 'deeply upset because of a magic mind game' blend, but I'm beginning to think it's the first one I should've ever come up with. Try the black tea with elderberries." Claire will most certainly go through her own possessions with a more discerning eye; plants that are too damaged to re-pot can still be broken down for use, just not the way that she'd intended.
"I was actively trying not to remember even while it was happening. And I know that it's because I'm tired of being alone, I'm tired of waiting for the moment I'll finally have my idea of happiness. I don't know if it's because I broke some rule of time, but it consistently seems to be against Jamie and I. Snatches of it are all we get together, just enough to feel heartwrenching when we're forced apart again."
Her back is to Michael as she moves around the living room. "'If Jamie arrives tomorrow' is the reasoning I've used for plenty of things. Now I have to apply it to not continuing a three-hundred-year relationship that wasn't even real."
And yet, that love still feels as real as any she's ever felt for Jamie, which makes her feel as though she should wear a scarlet A.