[ Julie takes another sip, watching Nadine with a dull, detached expression.
She thinks that, ordinarily, there might be some kind of spark of indignation at the idea of someone else deciding what's best for her. Her lives are stained by the lack of control she's had over them — the decisions she didn't get to make for herself, being a pawn in the games of beings so much bigger and more powerful than she is. Having her lives stolen from her, over and over, and being expected to constantly bounce back on a dime. To be smiles and glitter and bubblegum bright even as everything she cares about gets ripped from her grasp once more.
How can all of the others be okay already? How can they have just moved on?
But all of her rage is already spent on the universe at large. At the gods, at God. At Flagg and at the Abraxans. At the Singularity. At herself. There's not much left for anyone else. She can't find it in herself to be impassioned about this, or anything, really. ]
Nadine, I'm fine. [ Her voice is steady, despite it all. This is something that is, for once, her own to control. She has nothing else. ] It's fine.
[ It's not even a lie. Julie feels terrible, both physically and mentally, but if that's the only thing in the world she gets to actually have for herself, then it's what she'll take. ]
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She thinks that, ordinarily, there might be some kind of spark of indignation at the idea of someone else deciding what's best for her. Her lives are stained by the lack of control she's had over them — the decisions she didn't get to make for herself, being a pawn in the games of beings so much bigger and more powerful than she is. Having her lives stolen from her, over and over, and being expected to constantly bounce back on a dime. To be smiles and glitter and bubblegum bright even as everything she cares about gets ripped from her grasp once more.
How can all of the others be okay already? How can they have just moved on?
But all of her rage is already spent on the universe at large. At the gods, at God. At Flagg and at the Abraxans. At the Singularity. At herself. There's not much left for anyone else. She can't find it in herself to be impassioned about this, or anything, really. ]
Nadine, I'm fine. [ Her voice is steady, despite it all. This is something that is, for once, her own to control. She has nothing else. ] It's fine.
[ It's not even a lie. Julie feels terrible, both physically and mentally, but if that's the only thing in the world she gets to actually have for herself, then it's what she'll take. ]