Jesper curls into Sylvain after he permits him to and stays as close to his space as possible, but as soon as he's asked that, he unravels away from him. He's up onto his feet like a shot and starts pacing the room. His energy is so high at the moment he's practically shaking because he wants to go back. He knows this feeling so well and there's a high to even the thought of it.

"I need to stop being me. I need to stop being weak. I keep circling around to the same situation, when will I grow up?" Apparently he's twisted from fear and panic to anger and self-hate. Jesper rarely gets to that space but it does happen when he's dealing with the darker parts of himself. "You know I finally thought I had an answer, that not using my powers made me sick in the head instead of physically ill, and that meant I could be cured if I just used them."

He's rarely gone on this tangent in front of anyone else, he normally just cycles through it at himself when he's alone, but Sylvain is someone he feels safe enough to hate himself with. So there's that, for all the good it does. "But it's not true, I don't have an excuse, I'm just messed up. And no matter how much I try, I'll keep ending up in the same place!"