[ river is lucky to have lived a privileged life before her time at the academy. her parents were kind if not firm, affluent enough to give them everything they might ask for, and she probably would've grown up to be a spoiled little rich girl if she hadn't left home. she thinks she was loved, but...
but in her time at the academy, over the course of two years that she was desperate for them to bring her home, they never came. they disowned simon for trying to reach her and she can't help but wonder - they didn't hide their names when she was paraded in front of 'key members of parliament,' and she has to wonder if they knew. if there's any possible chance they could have known what they were doing to her and left her there to rot anyway...
no. the love and support istredd has given her is all she could have ever hoped for in a father, and she shakes her head against his deflection because he is a hero to her. for all that he would do for those that aren't even of his own sphere, he is a good man and she won't accept anyone saying otherwise.
she lets it drop though, sniffling and wiping at her face as she thinks about what it would be like to leave thorne altogether for solvunn. ]
I know Wanda. She gave me a blanket.
[ that was when they first met, and they've certainly done more than that in the time since, especially in the dream. river likes her, and if istredd and yennefer trust her, then it's not so outlandish an idea, but the idea of being unable to reach the people she cares about most here in thorne makes her chest ache. ]
We promised to stay together. [ she means cassian, but it's a little pointed toward istredd as well. ] It doesn't matter where. I just... I'm scared.
[ of everything, honestly, but of winding up alone most of all. ]
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but in her time at the academy, over the course of two years that she was desperate for them to bring her home, they never came. they disowned simon for trying to reach her and she can't help but wonder - they didn't hide their names when she was paraded in front of 'key members of parliament,' and she has to wonder if they knew. if there's any possible chance they could have known what they were doing to her and left her there to rot anyway...
no. the love and support istredd has given her is all she could have ever hoped for in a father, and she shakes her head against his deflection because he is a hero to her. for all that he would do for those that aren't even of his own sphere, he is a good man and she won't accept anyone saying otherwise.
she lets it drop though, sniffling and wiping at her face as she thinks about what it would be like to leave thorne altogether for solvunn. ]
I know Wanda. She gave me a blanket.
[ that was when they first met, and they've certainly done more than that in the time since, especially in the dream. river likes her, and if istredd and yennefer trust her, then it's not so outlandish an idea, but the idea of being unable to reach the people she cares about most here in thorne makes her chest ache. ]
We promised to stay together. [ she means cassian, but it's a little pointed toward istredd as well. ] It doesn't matter where. I just... I'm scared.
[ of everything, honestly, but of winding up alone most of all. ]