[Alucard isn't sure how this works at all. He tries to direct his thoughts into something resembling a decent chronology, but it skews younger than he would like. Tiny Adrian running around the castle with one or both his parents. The time he got stuck as a wolf and couldn't transform back, Dracula himself having to carry a wolf pup over his shoulder to bring him back home. All the awkwardness of quickly aging, the work of building the crypt with his father. There's joy there, real happiness, and his mother's presence and warmth is there even when she isn't. If there had been any questions about why Alucard focused so much on what it meant to be human, they're answered now. His mother is why.
The inevitable memories come too. Lisa's murder, the great fight between Alucard and Dracula that resulted in the giant scar down his chest and the agony of recovery. His friendship with Sypha and Trevor, the warmth it brought in the face of doing the unthinkable, mixed with flashes of Sypha's time in Abraxas. Dracula dies, Trevor and Sypha leave and Alucard processes his grief, lets the world in until it turns on him, until he's pulled out of a well and he's caged in with Geralt. Alucard tries to force through that portion, the stuff Viktor knows. He focuses on the good parts. Realizing actually Jaskier is his best friend. Reconciling with Sypha even if it meant fights and awkwardness. And...
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The inevitable memories come too. Lisa's murder, the great fight between Alucard and Dracula that resulted in the giant scar down his chest and the agony of recovery. His friendship with Sypha and Trevor, the warmth it brought in the face of doing the unthinkable, mixed with flashes of Sypha's time in Abraxas. Dracula dies, Trevor and Sypha leave and Alucard processes his grief, lets the world in until it turns on him, until he's pulled out of a well and he's caged in with Geralt. Alucard tries to force through that portion, the stuff Viktor knows. He focuses on the good parts. Realizing actually Jaskier is his best friend. Reconciling with Sypha even if it meant fights and awkwardness. And...
...they're here again.]