[ What did she do. He swallows. He nearly tells her not now, not today. But they've spoken this far and so he pushes onward. ]
She found a memory of when I was a boy. During the Trials.
[ He knows Ciri's next question: had it been deliberate? A mistake? Both? He remembers turning to Yennefer, the panic that rose inside him, the same panic he thinks he saw flicker over Yennefer's face before the memory swept him under. But the truth is, he can't be sure of anything. Not until he talks to her.
And he will. The question is always if Yennefer will speak to him. He's not certain what he'll do, how he'll feel, if she chooses to continue shutting him out after this. When does a choice become unforgivable? He knows, in the end, Yennefer was only protecting Ciri. And Geralt would not have stopped her even if he'd known. Maybe that's where the conflict lies. That he never had the chance to decide to stop her or not. ]
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She found a memory of when I was a boy. During the Trials.
[ He knows Ciri's next question: had it been deliberate? A mistake? Both? He remembers turning to Yennefer, the panic that rose inside him, the same panic he thinks he saw flicker over Yennefer's face before the memory swept him under. But the truth is, he can't be sure of anything. Not until he talks to her.
And he will. The question is always if Yennefer will speak to him. He's not certain what he'll do, how he'll feel, if she chooses to continue shutting him out after this. When does a choice become unforgivable? He knows, in the end, Yennefer was only protecting Ciri. And Geralt would not have stopped her even if he'd known. Maybe that's where the conflict lies. That he never had the chance to decide to stop her or not. ]