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Geralt z Rivii ([personal profile] gynvael) wrote in [community profile] abraxaslogs2021-12-07 11:20 am

[ OPEN / CLOSED ] i think i found a way to kill the sun

Who: Geralt + Various
When: December
Where: Cadens, Horizon
What: Some catching up now that he's home
Warnings: Discussion of trauma; nsfw marked



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[personal profile] cointosser 2021-12-13 04:55 am (UTC)(link)
Ah, the scientific process. I can't wait to see.

[Either it'll do something or do nothing, so at least there's no fear of poisoning the Witcher. It was about the only thing he could think of to get Geralt during all of... this. The more the days pass, the more Jaskier realizes why he cannot get rid of this grip over his heart, that leaves his muscles bundled tight and his sleep restless.

Geralt is definitely here. He's safe. Healing. He's taken care of, and they have confirmed the friends they can rely on outside of Cadens. And yet, all of that means nothing, really. When it could happen again. They had nothing to stop the mages that had taken Geralt, and he imagines that will not change. There are unstoppable forces that move them all -- the sweep of an army, perhaps the grip of a djinn, or Destiny herself. It's only that Geralt has always been able to protect himself from men. Jaskier has also relied on him to keep both of them safe.

Ugh. He'd never used to worry about these things. He never worried at all! If he sees Yennefer again, he knows her first comment will be of the new wrinkles he's sprouted.

He leads the way to the cemetery, uncharacteristically quiet himself. He does not fill the silence with idle chatter, having nothing to really say. The state he's lived in for the past weeks is nothing to talk about. This one thing -- like his bread -- is the only note of pride he can find.

As they approach the outer walls of the cemetery, he finally speaks up.]
Hopefully Alucard isn't about; he's been far pricklier lately. Though I suspect he's a wolf more than not.

[He stops Geralt by the first wall. Just inside is a long line of blackberry bushes, thick and swollen with berries, with an organized chaos to their long tangles of thorns.] So? What do you think? It's not the nicest, of course, but they're just berries. I thought I'd let them grow rather free.
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[personal profile] cointosser 2021-12-14 05:32 am (UTC)(link)
[It may be incredibly silly to be showing off a bunch of fucking berry plants to a man who'd just been kidnapped and tortured, but... Jaskier can't think of much else to do. There is some amount of pride he gets over looking at them, knowing they are his and his alone. A magic that, as far as he has experienced, no one else shares. Gifted alone to him, as he likes to imagine. As if the Singularity expected him to do something with it.]

Of course they are. What kind of idiot makes sour berries? [But the smile he shoots Geralt is soft around the edges. Roach had liked them very much as well, and he'd even stuck a few in his loaves for experimentation. Of course, they'd all sunk to the bottom and made a mess in the pan.

Jaskier does join him, crossing his legs neatly underneath. The grass, too, is his; soft and even, but growing wildly as the soil rights itself over time. A few yards away are flourishes of flowers across graves, ringing around the headstones. Lilies with spots of orange across their petals, and golden centers. They rest their petaled heads against the headstones like lovers left behind. Dandelions pop up randomly through the grass, swaying with the wind.

And further still is Alucard's cactus, now with smaller cactuses spotted around it, all flourishing with pink and white buds.]


Ciri talks too much. [He turns to Geralt with a tugging of his lips, his tone deeply affectionate.] If she's to tell you everything, what stories will I regale you with? [From the slow way his friend sat, he begins to think that potion did nothing at all.] Worry not, there's plenty still for you to devour yourself. As I'm sure you are far too eager to, of course.

[The bushes around them sway as a breeze cuts through the cemetery. After all of Jaskier's work, the place no longer smells of dirt or the dead.] Nothing goes sour there anymore. The bread doesn't mold, even from weeks ago. The berries never rot when I pick them. [His gaze moves down to his hand, where his fingers rub together.

He is not sure when to bring it up. Or if he even should. Yet not once has he ever hidden anything from the Witcher. Except, perhaps, the depths of his odorous inclinations when returned from a hunt.]
Another gift of magic from our most stony patron, I believe.
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[personal profile] cointosser 2021-12-14 07:05 am (UTC)(link)
[Somehow, that surprises Jaskier. Geralt? Assuming, before anything else, that he was competent? My, how a few weeks away can change a man.

But all he does outwardly is huff.]


No. And don't make me sound like a fool for not realizing sooner, that these things I do, these impossibilities, are mine and mine alone.

[Why would he ever assume himself capable of them? Magic is not his to bear, and it is, and -- fuck, he's turning into a mess. As the breeze blows, the stray hairs loose from the tie he's had them in wriggle across his face. He scratches his nose, sharply annoyed by them.]

I haven't studied for weeks. Everything I write's been shite, barely fit to burn. So I make bread, and I grow these little flowers, and I stop things from winding towards the inevitable death and decay they are meant to.

[He isn't sure what he's saying, or if it has any meaning at all. Jaskier is a boat adrift in unfamiliar waters, seeing new sights... and the boat is very upset about it all.

His throat tightens. His fingers rub harder, the nails clipping into his skin. He wishes he only brought him here to show off flowers and berries.]
I need a new hobby. Perhaps there's a spell to commune with the plants, next, that I may study. Or turn into a dragon. Everyone around here is so keen on turning into dragons.
Edited (every time it's a dramatic post, like clockwork, I fuck up the html) 2021-12-14 07:07 (UTC)
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[personal profile] cointosser 2021-12-14 11:56 pm (UTC)(link)
[His hand stills. He stares at their hands piled together, this thing, like a snapping, inside him. There is one thing he did not bring Geralt here for: to comfort him. Nor receive it in turn. The two of them have never sought such a thing in each other, and never needed to. Not this particular brand of it.]

What a bold assumption. What makes you think I wanted to?

[He doesn't pull his hand away, which is the only indication that, perhaps, the touch has steadied him. A little. For a moment. He has never been more relieved in his life to see Geralt in that desert. Alive, though he was hurt. Again. And still he barely knows what happened.

It isn't entirely for Geralt's comfort he's avoided it. A part of him -- a part too large to ignore -- does not want to know. Because it will mean things. And those things will affect him. He doesn't want to take on anymore. He's so godsdamn tired.

Jaskier sighs.]


I went to your domain. With Amos. [He doesn't believe Geralt will mind that part, if they had some sort of... bond.] To look for a note, a sign. There was a door with a lock on it, but it did not remain so when I went to open it. And...

[His throat constricts, tears prickling the corners of his eyes. Amos's reaction. What it meant. It's not fair to throw this on Geralt after so many years, but it is Jaskier's first time living through it, and he cannot apologize for his heart.] I saw what lay in your basement. [He swallows the lump that bobs in his throat. It's really not only the basement. It's the basement, and the diagrams, and Geralt coming home with welts flaying his back open.] I promise, we needn't talk about it. I simply wanted you to know, so it doesn't... so you don't think I meant it as some sort of -- of violation.
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[personal profile] cointosser 2021-12-15 07:29 am (UTC)(link)
[The noise is enough to indicate Geralt heard. (Of course he did.) That he acknowledges. Jaskier expects that to be the last of it. He simply does not keep secrets, and he has no intention of keeping them now. It was not a place he would've poked his head around in, had he known the meaning of it. Even he is not that big a fool.

His gaze lifts. Keep them out?

He frowns. What the fuck is that supposed to mean? And how should it affect the Horizon?

Again, his fingers rub. No. He knows. He -- he can guess.]


Now that I've properly warned you, you know. [Not, he thinks, that Geralt is the type to run away from this sort of memory. He's always been very bad at running, actually. (Except from Destiny.)] Anyway, there it is. We can pretend it's not there, as it changes nothing -- as we so often do -- and move on.

[Sometimes you simply find horror-basements in your best friend's brain and you quietly accept them.] You might think of cleaning the place every now and then, by the way. It's terribly dingy.

[Perhaps sometimes it really is better to run away from these things.]
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[personal profile] cointosser 2021-12-15 06:07 pm (UTC)(link)
[Funny enough, Jaskier only meant the basement. That was the sort of thing, well... he could guess, without asking for details, the sort of things that happened. It was in the past. Asking would not unmake what happened to him (if anything. Perhaps he only assumed the worst! And nothing... had happened...

Right.)]


Yes. Saw it too. He... well, let's say I imagine that's far more reaction than he's shown for most things. But I assume he won't ask about it. Doesn't seem the type.

[Taciturn. A little more verbose than Geralt, but even less nosy somehow.

He doesn't think Geralt asks because he cares much, honestly.

Jaskier takes a deep breath. Steels himself. He plants a hand on the grass and watches as, as casual as a flutter of wings, a rose begins to grow between his fingers. A bright, blood red. It's not the only thing he wanted to say. Though funny he brought him to a cemetery to say it -- or, no, that's not irony at all, is it?]
I'm not saying you have to. [Rosevines curl under his hand, carefully spreading out from his hand.] But if you want to -- and yes, yes, I know the very ironic comedy in asking you to speak -- I... I can listen. No matter what it was. What you endured.
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[personal profile] cointosser 2021-12-17 12:30 am (UTC)(link)
[And there is that. It's not really an... an offering. Calling it that, like it's a gift, is disingenuous. It is more a statement: that Jaskier is here, they are trapped here together, and through Destiny or the Singularity or neither or both, they are tied inextricably together. Whatever happened to Geralt is his pain, his memories. But it needn't sit in the Witcher, alone, forever. If he can't share the pain, what's the fucking point?

Jaskier knows that's the point, and yet. And yet he does not expect an answer.

It's receiving one that makes him jerk; all at once the rose withers and dies in a moment, in mere seconds, the very life choked out of it. He hadn't meant to, barely has mind to even notice how the blackened leaves now curl in on themselves, how the petals have fallen.

Geralt says only enough for Jaskier to pick up the pieces himself. She. He goes through women in his mind, but the list is terribly short when it comes to Geralt. When it comes to... Thorne. Of course it's she. It's always She, with a capital S, because She certainly is always there when things are right and proper fucked.

Who else could it be? Who else interferes and makes things worse? Gloating around, searching out her little feelers for more power? He begins to feel that sharp sting of anger -- mixed with that cold, awful attraction he prefers to deny to himself even now -- and it nearly rises to his face. Perhaps it does, for a second: the darkening of his brows and a snarl to his lip. But. To drown out all else.]


Yennefer was there. [A statement that he's quite sure does not need confirmation. He closes his eyes, lifts his hands to rub his face. Yennefer was there, because surely she has spent her time ingratiating herself to the nobles of Thorne. Perhaps to the monarchs themselves. To the other mages. Gloating about her power. Showing it off. Helping --

Yennefer was there, while mages were digging through the Witcher's memories. To find what? is the obvious question, but it could mean so many things. Yennefer, reaching into his mind, and -- and she found that basement somehow? Is that why it had appeared?

It must be. Why it had only appeared in the scant seconds Geralt could manage to maintain the Horizon. Unbidden. Unwanted. Like the shadow of the girl.

Jaskier is quiet, his words steady, yet slow. As he picks them out before Geralt shuts the door in his face.]
Did she know what she was reaching for? Did it... did it work?
Edited (s2 happened so this can now be more emotional) 2021-12-18 01:03 (UTC)
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[personal profile] cointosser 2021-12-18 08:54 am (UTC)(link)
[Like all of Geralt's silences, it's the lines between them that must be read. He doesn't say, which means two things: either Yennefer knew and did not care, or she hadn't meant to at all. He must wonder what it means, knowing what both of them would prefer to believe. What is most likely true in the end. And yet how they make absolute arseholes of themselves so easily.

Jaskier releases a breath, his shoulders sagging.

That explains things. Both what the mages were trying to see, perhaps, but also what Geralt was so desperate to protect. What a bizarre thing it is to behold now, after all of those years of Geralt refusing to even hear a word about his Child of Destiny. And even now, without Abraxas, he would still be running. Jaskier would never have met her. She would be a child in a womb; a concept. Barely even a name.

How his heart hurts now to think of a time where he doesn't know her. Without asking Geralt, he knows he feels the same.]


They won't. [Jaskier takes his friend's hand and squeezes it without prompting, looking him in the face.] You protected her, and you did a fine job of it. Through all of that. It's more than anyone else would have tried. I don't think I... [And then he lets him go.] I'll look into spells of the mind, that can protect them. They may be something. Something to safeguard memories.
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[personal profile] cointosser 2021-12-19 05:51 am (UTC)(link)
[As if he does not catch that particular furrowed brow in the very handsome face of his friend. That expression is exactly why he said as he did. And because... in this moment, he cannot believe otherwise. At least one of them has to believe in the good. In the victories. Small as they are.

Jaskier's laugh is more like a croak.]


I do believe that's the most optimistic thing I've ever heard you say. [Already they are moving about as far from optimistic as possible. The Great White Wolf, snatched away as easily as a babe. Torn open. His mind cracked like a nut. And all of it sounded as easy as anything for them. For Thorne.

He should have known it was them. Yet he'd truly believed they were safe. For if Thorne had that much power, why was it only Geralt who was taken? What of the other runaways?

The question, spoken in his head, answers itself. Because Geralt is connected to someone there. (Is it truly Yennefer's fault? Could he believe she would use Geralt like that? That love could mean so little to her?)]


Who gave it to you? The medallion. [He can see Geralt messing with it in the corner of his eye. Exactly like the one he's worn for years. Identical in every way, from what Jaskier can see. Does it vibrate now? When he raises flowers from nothing, does the medallion sing?] Was it her, too?
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[personal profile] cointosser 2021-12-19 10:08 am (UTC)(link)
[Whatever answer he braces himself for -- and let's be honest, he braces himself for the answer to be Yennefer, who he cannot imagine coming within a hair's breadth of any action so meaningful to anyone, let alone Geralt -- no amount of bracing could have been enough for this.]

Oooh. Smouldering muse, I like that. [Wait a second. He jerks his head towards Geralt.] You're telling me, [He starts, and for the first time in the conversation he is animated and no longer so much a shirking violet, pulling away from what has happened to his friend,] Kylo-fucking-Ren gave you a perfect replication of your old medallion, while you were imprisoned in Thorne's dungeons, that was passed onto him from Yennefer, prior to your escape, as orchestrated by a Thornean mage under Kylo Ren's request?

[His head spins. He feels abruptly as if, somehow, another Conjunction has happened, and he has been smashed into some other sphere where this story makes sense, cohesively. He raises a hand as if he has to stop Geralt from launching into more words, even though he's clearly said his piece.]

I am experiencing so many emotions right now. [It's almost a joke, except it isn't. He has yet to check in with Kylo Ren at all since their escape; their relationship was far from tenuous while he was in Thorne, but Jaskier could guess where his loyalties lay, and it's certainly not with those who scurried about and escaped into portals. The conversations with him, and the meetings they set up -- they were not frivolous things, and neither were they particularly heartfelt. While Yennefer is evil and rude and one of the worst people Jaskier's ever met, he doesn't take Kylo Ren as a sentimental sort, either.] H-how... whhhhy would Yennefer trust Kylo Ren enough to -- augh. She's probably fucking him, isn't she? Oooh, how I could wring that weird little goose neck of hers.

[She probably did it on purpose, hearing that precious ballad he'd rung through Thorne's halls. (He still thinks it's one of his best.) Well, the joke is on her. Kylo Ren thinks he's supremely sexy, and carried him across literal fire, and he can bet five crowns that Yennefer has never even seen his volcano. So. Hah.]

If it's from Kylo Ren, then I bet my left asscheek that Ronan made it. Abrasive git. I couldn't even get a bloody pierogi out of him. [Or a lute, which he never asked for, which probably would have happened, maybe, if he had. Well, fuck him for asking for a treat instead of an Elven lute crafted out of magic. He bets it would've been fuck-ugly, anyway.] How on Melitele's green fucking earth did you manage to receive aid from Thorne sympathizers? I'm sorry, but Yennefer is not that convincing.
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[personal profile] cointosser 2021-12-21 06:30 am (UTC)(link)
[He gasps. All those months of political machinations, and this is one of the fruits it bears?]

The queen? Oh, for fuck's sake. That's bad. Ooh, that seems very bad, a monarch coming out of the shadows. All that time performing and canoodling, I did not once catch sight of her. Barely even a word.

[So in their absence, Kylo Ren has somehow allied himself with Yennefer -- or the other way around, whatever -- and Thorne sympathizers working against the queen?

It's juicy. It's terribly juicy, and his fingers are rubbing together. He can't help it; the lyrics rise from nothing. He tamps them down. There is not a chance on this sphere he will be setting a target on his back for the queen of any kingdom.

He really needs to set up a line with Kylo Ren again. This is far too... much. Too much to not be aware of, especially if Thorne has their sights on his friend.

He shakes his head, pulling his legs up so he can lean his arms on them. Perfect place to put his face, his hands holding it, his breath a sigh.]
Power. Aren't they always? It's what everyone always wants. And if she is sanctioning kidnappings and tortures, it means... well, it's like to mean she has her sights on something specific. The Singularity, of course, is an easy guess, but I imagine it's not just that. Not when they already had pieces of it through us.
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[personal profile] cointosser 2021-12-21 09:26 pm (UTC)(link)
[Jaskier scoffs at him, dark with derision. Need it be said? How long has he survived in the courts of the Continent again?] Of course she has spies, Geralt. Every fucking person with a whit of intelligence has spies. Even I have spies, as useless as they are.

[Look, he's still working on the spell with the birds. Or... well. He had been working on it. He has not worked on much for nearly a month, now. Without the efforts of Hector and Rinwell to ply himself and Ciri with food, he's not sure much would've ever been accomplished. At the very least, they and Red had both helped find Geralt's camp, as helpful as it'd been. (Read: none. He's not even sure Ciri's brought it up. Perhaps they shouldn't. What's a bit of murder between a man and his friend's daughter?)

He rubs his hands together, only now noticing the dried up, dead rose. A frown crosses his face. He hadn't meant to do that.]


Who was the mage? The one from our original escape?
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[personal profile] cointosser 2021-12-24 04:57 am (UTC)(link)
[Jaskier hits him, a slap across the chest, as easy and automatic as anything.] Oh, shut it. I don't see you providing surveillance for our... strange, awkward family. Besides, Red is far from useless.

[He wasn't for spying, exactly, but Sam had certainly had no complaints on the utility of the bird.

He drops his arm, looking back.]


Not that I blame you, but it doesn't narrow things down. [Who would be willing to portal someone out of Thorne, especially a prisoner of the queen? Someone assured they would receive no blowback.

It's a lot to take in. Gods knew that Geralt's head must have been spinning, taking it all in. All these hierarchies, the traitors, the possibilities these alliances may mean. And here they had been in Cadens for months, hoping that their escape would not come crawling back to nip at their heels.

A breeze moves through the cemetery, bringing the scent of freshly turned soil, the sweet notes of the blackberries. The dead rose crumbles to nothing as he touches it again, and he ignores the poetic omen it certainly must represent.]
I know it does not mean much, hearing it... but I'm sorry. I'm sorry this happened to you. Whatever you need, Geralt, if you can think of a thing. It's yours.
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