[ State of mind aside, Julie seems to have gotten an improved grasp on her magic. The lightning sends the lightest hum through his medallion. It's a small thing, but it's good to see.
So that's the story. It's always that way, isn't it? When there are dozens of threats, when the world is shifting across its miles, it's always the ones beside you who fuck you the most. There's a lot he could say about betrayal, about trust, about what it is to suddenly feel responsible for someone you hadn't asked for—because you chose to be there when no one else was—and it starts to mean more than you were ready for. Starts to mean too much. (Throughout his investigation into the disappearances, he's never once let himself consider what he will do if he ever wakes to find Ciri gone. He can't.) But he imagines Julie already knows all this, so he doesn't. ]
You were there for her. [ He knows how much that means. (Maybe it isn't only Susan he's referring to.) He hesitates. ] Back home, we only returned to Kaer Morhen at first frost. We never knew who we'd find missing until then.
[ He's lived with that uncertainty for so long he's forgotten what it is to not feel it. The simple knowledge that it is all too possible for him to be the last one standing, alone. ]
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So that's the story. It's always that way, isn't it? When there are dozens of threats, when the world is shifting across its miles, it's always the ones beside you who fuck you the most. There's a lot he could say about betrayal, about trust, about what it is to suddenly feel responsible for someone you hadn't asked for—because you chose to be there when no one else was—and it starts to mean more than you were ready for. Starts to mean too much. (Throughout his investigation into the disappearances, he's never once let himself consider what he will do if he ever wakes to find Ciri gone. He can't.) But he imagines Julie already knows all this, so he doesn't. ]
You were there for her. [ He knows how much that means. (Maybe it isn't only Susan he's referring to.) He hesitates. ] Back home, we only returned to Kaer Morhen at first frost. We never knew who we'd find missing until then.
[ He's lived with that uncertainty for so long he's forgotten what it is to not feel it. The simple knowledge that it is all too possible for him to be the last one standing, alone. ]