[Alucard would have an absolute conniption at being compared to Hector, so yes, thank you Jaskier for not saying those thoughts out loud.
Alucard's face flashes towards the apologetic. He knows very well that the Geralt matter was not his finest moment. It was a confluence of terrible timing on all accounts, and the horrid failure to recognize that Alucard's issues and Geralt's issues sprung from a similar place, but then diverged in the worst way possible. Strong words weren't inevitable, unless you asked the wrong questions in the worst way possible.]
Like I said. I've learned a lesson. I wasn't at my best then, I apologize.
[It probably is a pointless apology. Geralt had gotten a real one in so much as they both acknowledged what happened, and Ciri had recieved something similar enough. Jaskier should have been the first person t hear something but...no matter. It was said and done with now, that's the important part.
Which is what makes it easier with the three of them, Alucard's come to realize. Little prying because everyone has secrets they'll share in time, and accepting that things are what they are sometimes on emotional matters. The lack of pressure on any of it is simpler. Less stressful. Helpful.
The dhampir politely refuses any low hanging fruit of you? Dramatic? He's not that unkind, and--
--oh.
Alucard considers the real weight of this. Whatever happened is truly awful then.] Taking care of the dead is the easiest thing in the world. [It isn't, but the point is the living are always harder.]
If your music isn't enough anymore, can at least be a stepping stone towards something larger? I'll speak from experience that lashing out like I did is not a steady foundation. A long nap was marginally more so.
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Alucard's face flashes towards the apologetic. He knows very well that the Geralt matter was not his finest moment. It was a confluence of terrible timing on all accounts, and the horrid failure to recognize that Alucard's issues and Geralt's issues sprung from a similar place, but then diverged in the worst way possible. Strong words weren't inevitable, unless you asked the wrong questions in the worst way possible.]
Like I said. I've learned a lesson. I wasn't at my best then, I apologize.
[It probably is a pointless apology. Geralt had gotten a real one in so much as they both acknowledged what happened, and Ciri had recieved something similar enough. Jaskier should have been the first person t hear something but...no matter. It was said and done with now, that's the important part.
Which is what makes it easier with the three of them, Alucard's come to realize. Little prying because everyone has secrets they'll share in time, and accepting that things are what they are sometimes on emotional matters. The lack of pressure on any of it is simpler. Less stressful. Helpful.
The dhampir politely refuses any low hanging fruit of you? Dramatic? He's not that unkind, and--
--oh.
Alucard considers the real weight of this. Whatever happened is truly awful then.] Taking care of the dead is the easiest thing in the world. [It isn't, but the point is the living are always harder.]
If your music isn't enough anymore, can at least be a stepping stone towards something larger? I'll speak from experience that lashing out like I did is not a steady foundation. A long nap was marginally more so.