I know. I know I've given you grief about being pushy, but you actually don't push about important things. I guess...I just wanted to say something to someone. I don't, usually.
[Who would she talk to? No, it's always been easiest just to keep it to herself, until that became an ingrained pattern. No one cares, no one wants to listen to the private sufferings of Nadine Cross. Except maybe Jaskier does.
And it's better that he didn't ask, asking is a quick way for her to shut down and change topics.]
And no, no it doesn't hurt, exactly. Not physically. It feels...weird. I think. It happened kind of fast, I wasn't expecting it. Honestly it was...it was like a defense mechanism that kicked in - I got startled, badly. And suddenly everything went blurry and my body felt wrong and then I wasn't even human shaped anymore. And TV had it all wrong, your clothes don't change with you.
[Alright, so maybe she's not focusing on the parts it would be helpful to talk about, but...there's a lightness, in the specific incident. Looking back, it's a little bit ridiculous, honestly.
Though she should probably explain, if only to give Jaskier a clearer picture. Maybe the whole thing will cheer him up some. Take away all her fears and concerns over what it means for her and future, and it is something of a silly story.]
I...I changed into a wolf. An actual wolf. I changed right back - and again, clothes do not change with you - but it happened. Right on the street. I can't even begin to recreate the noise I made when I realized....
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[Who would she talk to? No, it's always been easiest just to keep it to herself, until that became an ingrained pattern. No one cares, no one wants to listen to the private sufferings of Nadine Cross. Except maybe Jaskier does.
And it's better that he didn't ask, asking is a quick way for her to shut down and change topics.]
And no, no it doesn't hurt, exactly. Not physically. It feels...weird. I think. It happened kind of fast, I wasn't expecting it. Honestly it was...it was like a defense mechanism that kicked in - I got startled, badly. And suddenly everything went blurry and my body felt wrong and then I wasn't even human shaped anymore. And TV had it all wrong, your clothes don't change with you.
[Alright, so maybe she's not focusing on the parts it would be helpful to talk about, but...there's a lightness, in the specific incident. Looking back, it's a little bit ridiculous, honestly.
Though she should probably explain, if only to give Jaskier a clearer picture. Maybe the whole thing will cheer him up some. Take away all her fears and concerns over what it means for her and future, and it is something of a silly story.]
I...I changed into a wolf. An actual wolf. I changed right back - and again, clothes do not change with you - but it happened. Right on the street. I can't even begin to recreate the noise I made when I realized....