[ The water has already risen above her head; if she didn't know logically that she was breathing, she would pass out from the feeling of drowning. And she knows, she knows that physically she is fine, that she is getting air, but her lungs feel so tight, her head is swimming.
Lloyd is dead. He's dead and gone, and sure, maybe sometimes people come back, but she doesn't feel like he has much of a shot at it. His connection to the Singularity was weak at best. And even if he does make it back, the chances of him returning before Flagg are nearly zero, and Flagg will kill them all if he gets back. Maybe it's better for Lloyd if he instead gets obliterated in a nuclear explosion, but -- but what does that mean for Julie, here and without him?
Sam had apologized to her once before, for things he couldn't control and took no part in, and it shattered her then, cracked the dam. It does the same now, and though she doesn't embrace him back, she doesn't pull away either. A hoarse, broken sound comes from somewhere deep and low in her chest, somewhere she didn't even know existed, and her stomach aches as she sobs, gasps for breath. Her nails dig into her skin where she's still wrapped around herself, clinging to herself because she's afraid to let go. ]
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Lloyd is dead. He's dead and gone, and sure, maybe sometimes people come back, but she doesn't feel like he has much of a shot at it. His connection to the Singularity was weak at best. And even if he does make it back, the chances of him returning before Flagg are nearly zero, and Flagg will kill them all if he gets back. Maybe it's better for Lloyd if he instead gets obliterated in a nuclear explosion, but -- but what does that mean for Julie, here and without him?
Sam had apologized to her once before, for things he couldn't control and took no part in, and it shattered her then, cracked the dam. It does the same now, and though she doesn't embrace him back, she doesn't pull away either. A hoarse, broken sound comes from somewhere deep and low in her chest, somewhere she didn't even know existed, and her stomach aches as she sobs, gasps for breath. Her nails dig into her skin where she's still wrapped around herself, clinging to herself because she's afraid to let go. ]