[ Sam is not wrong to recognize that small smile as what passes for a laugh from Geralt. The kind of laugh, specifically, that's also giving him shit in return.
He's relaxed, his edges calm. When Sam poses the question, the tension doesn't come. Perhaps he was expecting Sam would ask. That Sam would see what he's been doing and know. Geralt's not exactly hidden it. He's simply not said anything of it, what happened between him and Yennefer. What the fuck is there? It hurts. He misses her. And he'd say them again, the things he told her. ]
Not really. [ Even so, he finds himself turning the words over in his mind. He sighs. ] I promised Ciri, that the three of us would help each other. I can't help feeling I've let her down.
[ He isn't certain how to explain it. Only that he's—he wanted more for her. This thing they found. A family. Home. Home was Kaer Morhen until it splintered. Ciri has hesitated to enter since. Yennefer is no longer someone he can hold onto in his life, and that isn't what Ciri wants either. It feels like he can't...give her anything without it falling to pieces. He can keep her safe. He would do anything for her. But he doesn't know how to give her more. ]
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He's relaxed, his edges calm. When Sam poses the question, the tension doesn't come. Perhaps he was expecting Sam would ask. That Sam would see what he's been doing and know. Geralt's not exactly hidden it. He's simply not said anything of it, what happened between him and Yennefer. What the fuck is there? It hurts. He misses her. And he'd say them again, the things he told her. ]
Not really. [ Even so, he finds himself turning the words over in his mind. He sighs. ] I promised Ciri, that the three of us would help each other. I can't help feeling I've let her down.
[ He isn't certain how to explain it. Only that he's—he wanted more for her. This thing they found. A family. Home. Home was Kaer Morhen until it splintered. Ciri has hesitated to enter since. Yennefer is no longer someone he can hold onto in his life, and that isn't what Ciri wants either. It feels like he can't...give her anything without it falling to pieces. He can keep her safe. He would do anything for her. But he doesn't know how to give her more. ]