Preference? I wish I had ever been given the luxury of having a preference in how to live my life. I've been a weapon and property of the crown in all but the name since I was five. I've never had any real say in what I can or cannot do, where I can and cannot go.
[He was raised not to question it, but a part of him always wondered, always resisted. Even if it manifested in the smallest of ways, getting bolder and bigger each time he could get away with it ... until they weren't small any more.]
When I did leave, it wasn't me who suffered the most as a consequence.
[He failed his city, its people, but most of all he failed his brother. For all his complaining of being chained to his place, that's the one thing he'd rather never do again. He cannot stand seeing Rhy suffer. Not by external circumstances, not from the hands of other people, but first and foremost not because of him.]
As long as they keep my brother safe, I think I can indulge them.
[The alternative is not something he wants to think about.]
I know.
[Kell cannot, in all honesty, say the same thing about himself. That he won't do it, doesn't mean he doesn't want it. He'd love to see what's behind the castle walls. He was always curious of the world. Still, if the price of him doing some sightseeing here is causing Rhy pain, then it's not really a choice at all. ]
I'm not saying I wouldn't like to travel. I'd love to see the Singularity with my own eyes, in person. Hell, I'd like to visit you and see your city. But if I had to leave Rhy behind and that would cause him distress? Then no, I'll pass. No matter if I'm allowed to or not.
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[He was raised not to question it, but a part of him always wondered, always resisted. Even if it manifested in the smallest of ways, getting bolder and bigger each time he could get away with it ... until they weren't small any more.]
When I did leave, it wasn't me who suffered the most as a consequence.
[He failed his city, its people, but most of all he failed his brother. For all his complaining of being chained to his place, that's the one thing he'd rather never do again. He cannot stand seeing Rhy suffer. Not by external circumstances, not from the hands of other people, but first and foremost not because of him.]
As long as they keep my brother safe, I think I can indulge them.
[The alternative is not something he wants to think about.]
I know.
[Kell cannot, in all honesty, say the same thing about himself. That he won't do it, doesn't mean he doesn't want it. He'd love to see what's behind the castle walls. He was always curious of the world. Still, if the price of him doing some sightseeing here is causing Rhy pain, then it's not really a choice at all. ]
I'm not saying I wouldn't like to travel. I'd love to see the Singularity with my own eyes, in person. Hell, I'd like to visit you and see your city. But if I had to leave Rhy behind and that would cause him distress? Then no, I'll pass. No matter if I'm allowed to or not.