Yes, exactly! I've got a baggage about magic, and for good reason. Makes me a bit of a prick about it sometimes.

[Mat lets out a breath he didn't realize he's been holding. But Kell is perfectly accepting of his vague overview, and doesn't ask for any details. It's a relief. The details...they aren't anything he likes to get into.

And his apology's been accepted, which he's also grateful for. He does quite like Kell, and would hate to strike a chasm between them. He simply loses control of himself sometimes...

Which goes right back to his original problem.]

But I am sorry, that you went through that. I know your magic's damned important to you, for a number of reasons.

And light, that sounds just as bad. So we're both a bit fucked up!