[her heart aches, knowing what he says—what he wants from her. she can tell that he isn't saying things for the sake of saying them: he means them.

but it's because he hasn't seen, not really, what she's capable of. though he knows what she's done, it's different to see it when you're emotionally invested on the other person—and thus subjective about the whole ordeal. she is a threat; she had told stephen strange as much. she feels like one, worse of all. she wants this that she has with matt, she wants to be selfish—and she is being selfish, but—

but it's not something she deserves in the long term.]

Couldn't I?

[decide what he thinks is worth it for him? she could easily change his mind with a flick of her wrist, though it's pretty much an empty threat, considering how actions in the horizon don't affect them in the real world.]

—I don't even know if there's a future for me past 2025, Matt. I'm not normal. I can't just — quit who I am. I can't undo the murders I've committed. I can't— I can't have my happy ending.