... No. [This is said with some hesitance. Some beginning of a crack in Lucifer's contrasting personalities in this odd, off-balanced discussion.
It's not that...! It's not that he's afraid exactly. Like he told Istredd, he'd like to be able to go to it with him on this sides of things if he manages to swing it eventually. But in the Horizon he feels closer to normal. Not nearly at full power, but better than he feels in Abraxas proper.
If he goes there and he loses that comfort he'll lose the last tether to his sanity.
And there's Istredd's own theories that the "attacks" to their minds could have been a result of someone coming too close to the Singularity via the Horizon. A reaction.
Lucifer, motion returned to him, rubs a hand through his hair and drags it back over his head, frustration without an outlet. There's wanting to know and then there's knowing there might be a cost and Lucifer absolutely doesn't care about the people here or the planet but when the cost might be a detriment to himself that's where he draws a line.] There are too many unknowns and that sort of thing needs a proper risk assessment before Summoned keep haphazardly potentially making things worse for the rest of us. [For him.]
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It's not that...! It's not that he's afraid exactly. Like he told Istredd, he'd like to be able to go to it with him on this sides of things if he manages to swing it eventually. But in the Horizon he feels closer to normal. Not nearly at full power, but better than he feels in Abraxas proper.
If he goes there and he loses that comfort he'll lose the last tether to his sanity.
And there's Istredd's own theories that the "attacks" to their minds could have been a result of someone coming too close to the Singularity via the Horizon. A reaction.
Lucifer, motion returned to him, rubs a hand through his hair and drags it back over his head, frustration without an outlet. There's wanting to know and then there's knowing there might be a cost and Lucifer absolutely doesn't care about the people here or the planet but when the cost might be a detriment to himself that's where he draws a line.] There are too many unknowns and that sort of thing needs a proper risk assessment before Summoned keep haphazardly potentially making things worse for the rest of us. [For him.]