"I don't want easy. When have any of our lives ever been easy."

What he wants is to know where the landmines are. The landmines that he himself has imposed. They aren't really there but he expects them, as with so much else, and so he's not sure how to think about things without thinking about that as well.

"Well sometimes I think you're both fools," he points out. "That you're still with me, but I am glad for that."

It's more than he's admitted to most, and certainly being honest in ways he never has before but they deserve that, even if they'll tell him he's wrong... or worse, they might agree.

"Because I'm not certain how to put it into the words you both may need, or to give you what you need. I've encouraged you to take the world by the throat and take everything you want and need... trying that with me may not get you what you want."

He needs to be clear, to know. Already he's feel more emotions openly than he ever has, and he knows how easily this could all destroy him if it goes wrong.

"I swore once never to let anyone in close enough that they could destroy me... yet here we are."

It's a dangerous admission in his mind, giving them that power, but it's what he can offer where he stands in that moment.