[ It was not lack of desire to see her. The opposite, he wanted to, desperately, but he knew he wouldn't be helpful to her. And that she would hate it. They are in each other's space plenty and after his frantic telepathic call to her, she must know his concern was very real. It ended up being correctly so, since she was in danger. At the time he wondered if it was a test, but the chance it wasn't made all the difference. Istredd was genuinely angry at the people who chose not to do it but he hasn't found out who they are. Probably for the best.
Being around her has been difficult every time this happens but Istredd knows they have to be adults about it. A part of him wonders if this will ever be easy. If there is a time he can see her and be near her and not have it hurt like a continuous stab to the heart. I never stopped, he told Geralt. It is what it is.
She already has her defenses up and he cannot blame her. ]
First, I want apologize to you for using our mental connection without permission. In this case, the danger was concerning and immediate, so I reacted without thinking.
[ Istredd wants to start there with admitting to a bad choice made. He could have used that thing, whatever it is, that Summoned have to communicate with each other. He generally tries to be responsible in psionics since they are his magic. But doing so revealed something to him she did not choose to, and therefore he feels it is only right to acknowledging he did something shitty. He hasn't used their telepathic connection in a long time. This tension between them is constant but he hopes extending one branch would matter.
He folds his arms against his chest though and steps closer to her, within a respectful distance though, as usual. Istredd wants to be in her space, he wants to feel her breathing for himself. His gaze then is fully of frustration instead of being contrite now that the next part matters far more. ]
You should have told me about your magic. There is no one here that has our exact connection to Chaos, there is no one that can understand more than me. For all you know, I can help!
[ Istredd doesn't think it likely but the point is that he can try, they should try every possible route to test her disconnect from her magic. He drew out her skills before, when they were young, perhaps that connection could make a difference. His tone has an undercurrent of anger now. ]
For fuck's sake, Yennefer, I'm here, I'm on your side.
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Being around her has been difficult every time this happens but Istredd knows they have to be adults about it. A part of him wonders if this will ever be easy. If there is a time he can see her and be near her and not have it hurt like a continuous stab to the heart. I never stopped, he told Geralt. It is what it is.
She already has her defenses up and he cannot blame her. ]
First, I want apologize to you for using our mental connection without permission. In this case, the danger was concerning and immediate, so I reacted without thinking.
[ Istredd wants to start there with admitting to a bad choice made. He could have used that thing, whatever it is, that Summoned have to communicate with each other. He generally tries to be responsible in psionics since they are his magic. But doing so revealed something to him she did not choose to, and therefore he feels it is only right to acknowledging he did something shitty. He hasn't used their telepathic connection in a long time. This tension between them is constant but he hopes extending one branch would matter.
He folds his arms against his chest though and steps closer to her, within a respectful distance though, as usual. Istredd wants to be in her space, he wants to feel her breathing for himself. His gaze then is fully of frustration instead of being contrite now that the next part matters far more. ]
You should have told me about your magic. There is no one here that has our exact connection to Chaos, there is no one that can understand more than me. For all you know, I can help!
[ Istredd doesn't think it likely but the point is that he can try, they should try every possible route to test her disconnect from her magic. He drew out her skills before, when they were young, perhaps that connection could make a difference. His tone has an undercurrent of anger now. ]
For fuck's sake, Yennefer, I'm here, I'm on your side.