[ Jesper is easily distracted by the right things. Gambling, adrenaline, violence, sex, whatever gets his blood boiling and feeling alive. There is nothing he craves more than that high from being alive and thrilled, which is why he chases the things that gives it to him. He sighs when Sylvain leans into him and he smiles, relief fluttering through him. On some level he understands that being dragged away from this place will spare him a mistake today, even if it'll come back for him later.
He lets Sylvain continue to pull him around, dragged by the coat but he is now fully involved in it, walking toward him as he walks back. The farther from the gambling hall they get, the better he'll feel, although that desperation will come back too. Jesper eventually manages to shake it off and walks with Sylvain, gripping his arm as a point of contact.
He gets nervous when he sees the inn though; Inej and Kaz are somewhere in there. He is filled with an instant panic at the idea and freezes, his eyes widening, looking pale. Guilt and remorse are even worse than the obsession when it comes to this. ]
If they see me they'll know.
[ With how he looks. There is no question who 'they' are, the Crows are a package deal. ]
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He lets Sylvain continue to pull him around, dragged by the coat but he is now fully involved in it, walking toward him as he walks back. The farther from the gambling hall they get, the better he'll feel, although that desperation will come back too. Jesper eventually manages to shake it off and walks with Sylvain, gripping his arm as a point of contact.
He gets nervous when he sees the inn though; Inej and Kaz are somewhere in there. He is filled with an instant panic at the idea and freezes, his eyes widening, looking pale. Guilt and remorse are even worse than the obsession when it comes to this. ]
If they see me they'll know.
[ With how he looks. There is no question who 'they' are, the Crows are a package deal. ]