[ He smiles. It'd taken him time to really start to stay, in part because his comfort with remaining in the Horizon had been complicated back then—but also because, like her, he'd not expected any of this to be permanent. Or as permanent as things can be. Geralt, always, lives his life preparing for one loss after another. It's what he knows, and it's what he's come to expect.
But some losses, he hopes to put further off than others. Far enough into the future that he doesn't want to think about it or keep her at arms length, waiting for when she will not be here. And he's wondered about that sometimes: why he leads the life he does, and yet he's here, outliving so many others. It isn't as though he wants to go first. Only that being the one left standing doesn't feel a fuck of a lot better.
Double-edged nature of a sword, he supposes. ]
Am I so predictable? [ He absolutely is. He lets an easy silence lapse, not really wanting to disturb the moment, before he finds himself gently prodding, ] You've been all right?
[ He means, mm. More than this, throwing herself into hosting parties and decorating. He has not asked for much detail since that day, decided she could use a bit of time to come around if she wants to talk to him. But he doesn't think it should go ignored, either. He can tell she's not quite fine. ]
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But some losses, he hopes to put further off than others. Far enough into the future that he doesn't want to think about it or keep her at arms length, waiting for when she will not be here. And he's wondered about that sometimes: why he leads the life he does, and yet he's here, outliving so many others. It isn't as though he wants to go first. Only that being the one left standing doesn't feel a fuck of a lot better.
Double-edged nature of a sword, he supposes. ]
Am I so predictable? [ He absolutely is. He lets an easy silence lapse, not really wanting to disturb the moment, before he finds himself gently prodding, ] You've been all right?
[ He means, mm. More than this, throwing herself into hosting parties and decorating. He has not asked for much detail since that day, decided she could use a bit of time to come around if she wants to talk to him. But he doesn't think it should go ignored, either. He can tell she's not quite fine. ]