There's a lot going on inside Ronan, and he's not sure it's exclusively the Singularity that has him feeling so charged. Does Kylo know the difference? Ronan feels transparent under that heavy gaze, like Kylo's got him under a microscope and he's teasing out all the molecular structures of him, categorizing him like he's done with those meticulous notes on the table.
"I could never feel this shit before," Ronan explains as he drags out a chair and sinks into it. "My... teacher. He used to get pissed off about it, like I wasn't trying hard enough, but I just couldn't feel this kind of energy outside of dreams. Not unless it was super-charged."
When they're this close, it's impossible to believe Kylo can't sense himself inside Ronan. His mind keeps going to Adam, the day Adam realized what the Greywaren and Cabeswater were to each other, and what his bargain with Cabeswater had meant. You're still just you, Ronan had insisted, but he knew Adam hadn't believed it then, and Ronan isn't sure he believes it now, either. After Bryde, how can he be sure of anything when it comes to what he is or what he does to people? No wonder Adam wanted him dead.
He sucks in a breath, like he wants to say something more. But the words elude him and all he ends up doing is staring right back at Kylo.
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"I could never feel this shit before," Ronan explains as he drags out a chair and sinks into it. "My... teacher. He used to get pissed off about it, like I wasn't trying hard enough, but I just couldn't feel this kind of energy outside of dreams. Not unless it was super-charged."
When they're this close, it's impossible to believe Kylo can't sense himself inside Ronan. His mind keeps going to Adam, the day Adam realized what the Greywaren and Cabeswater were to each other, and what his bargain with Cabeswater had meant. You're still just you, Ronan had insisted, but he knew Adam hadn't believed it then, and Ronan isn't sure he believes it now, either. After Bryde, how can he be sure of anything when it comes to what he is or what he does to people? No wonder Adam wanted him dead.
He sucks in a breath, like he wants to say something more. But the words elude him and all he ends up doing is staring right back at Kylo.