Viktor is smart, yes, though he's not sure he considers himself very wise. People like Heimerdinger certainly didn't make him feel that way, with all of his talk about how Viktor and Jayce didn't fully understand the dangers of their technology. Patronizing, now that he's had some separation from it, but given what Jayce has been through, maybe partially correct. Viktor doesn't necessary feel wise, going into this.
He doesn't want to distress Jayce any more than is necessary, but Viktor knows by now that it's worse for him if he leaves all these feelings unvoiced. It's okay to be scared--they both are, and he can be thankful that, at least for now, neither of them have to do it alone.
For once, he finds himself choked up. Viktor rarely cries, but he supposes that if it has to happen, this is a worthy occasion for it. They've done everything they can to ensure that the procedure will be a success, but even the thought that it might not be hurts in a way he wasn't sure he was capable of feeling. He doesn't want to die. The thought of it, and of leaving Jayce, is unbearable.
Viktor can't answer. He buries his face in Jayce's chest, arms around his shoulders, holding him close.
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Viktor is smart, yes, though he's not sure he considers himself very wise. People like Heimerdinger certainly didn't make him feel that way, with all of his talk about how Viktor and Jayce didn't fully understand the dangers of their technology. Patronizing, now that he's had some separation from it, but given what Jayce has been through, maybe partially correct. Viktor doesn't necessary feel wise, going into this.
He doesn't want to distress Jayce any more than is necessary, but Viktor knows by now that it's worse for him if he leaves all these feelings unvoiced. It's okay to be scared--they both are, and he can be thankful that, at least for now, neither of them have to do it alone.
For once, he finds himself choked up. Viktor rarely cries, but he supposes that if it has to happen, this is a worthy occasion for it. They've done everything they can to ensure that the procedure will be a success, but even the thought that it might not be hurts in a way he wasn't sure he was capable of feeling. He doesn't want to die. The thought of it, and of leaving Jayce, is unbearable.
Viktor can't answer. He buries his face in Jayce's chest, arms around his shoulders, holding him close.