Viktor recognizes this for the impasse that it is, and he also recognizes that he's the one at a disadvantage, here. Of course he's not asking Jayce to go home to his death, but there's no guarantee Viktor will be able to accomplish what he's describing with one hundred percent certainty. It's unfair, and it seems like Jayce doesn't even want that, anyway.
"You never wanted to leave, even before this. You'd have to face your mistakes, then. Did you just assume that I could sever my ties so easily? My ambitions?"
Viktor has complicated feelings on the subject. He wants to be with Jayce, but he can't abandon the Undercity. Instead of forcing himself to choose, however, Viktor is trying to reason his way around it, like a math problem he can solve. A solution he can cheat his way into, where he gets to have everything he wants.
"I would never ask you to go if I wasn't sure." But that's not really the issue. Jayce seems to take umbrage with the morality of it, too. If it's right to alter the spell to carry over the things they've learned here back into their world and change their own destinies. He thinks it might be possible--Tony arrived back in Abraxas physically changed, carrying over real, tangible damage from his experience in his own world. Viktor can work with that, but he also knows he can't do it alone. If Jayce doesn't even want to try, he doesn't know where to go from here. He only knows how to react as a trapped animal would, lashing out because he's backed into a corner.
"But what happens if I agree, and then one day I disappear regardless? All of this will have been a fantasy." Something they could never have, otherwise. Fleeting, after everything. Even if they never use the ritual to go home, Viktor thinks it's worth knowing how it works, solely to prevent one or both of them from vanishing. "I've spent so long trying to outrun my own death. I finally have a life to look forward to. I get to decide what to do with it."
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"You never wanted to leave, even before this. You'd have to face your mistakes, then. Did you just assume that I could sever my ties so easily? My ambitions?"
Viktor has complicated feelings on the subject. He wants to be with Jayce, but he can't abandon the Undercity. Instead of forcing himself to choose, however, Viktor is trying to reason his way around it, like a math problem he can solve. A solution he can cheat his way into, where he gets to have everything he wants.
"I would never ask you to go if I wasn't sure." But that's not really the issue. Jayce seems to take umbrage with the morality of it, too. If it's right to alter the spell to carry over the things they've learned here back into their world and change their own destinies. He thinks it might be possible--Tony arrived back in Abraxas physically changed, carrying over real, tangible damage from his experience in his own world. Viktor can work with that, but he also knows he can't do it alone. If Jayce doesn't even want to try, he doesn't know where to go from here. He only knows how to react as a trapped animal would, lashing out because he's backed into a corner.
"But what happens if I agree, and then one day I disappear regardless? All of this will have been a fantasy." Something they could never have, otherwise. Fleeting, after everything. Even if they never use the ritual to go home, Viktor thinks it's worth knowing how it works, solely to prevent one or both of them from vanishing. "I've spent so long trying to outrun my own death. I finally have a life to look forward to. I get to decide what to do with it."