"Me trying to have everything and fix everything is part of why things went where they did. All actions have consequences. Just because you mean well doesn't mean it'll end well. I think Heimerdinger proved that." Their mentor always meant well. His complete brand was condescending kindness and brushing conflict to the side. Jayce thinks he was right when it came to some things. Not all things though. He can see Heimerdinger clearly (and critically) as well as himself these days.
"I'm sure you think it'll be different because it's you doing it, but you also wanted to keep the Hexcore despite all the reasons not to." Viktor gets blinded by his own arrogance, same as Jayce sometimes, and his certainty somehow he can do better than everyone else. Jayce just knows it's false. And he'd rather Viktor not have to actually experience the full from grace that he did in order to get there. It's not fun.
Jayce unravels from Viktor's grip but only so he can turn to face him, pulling a leg up onto the bed so he can look at him more directly. He cups Viktor's face in his hands, brushing his thumb against the mole over his mouth, like always.
"I really hoped that it wouldn't have been a choice." And that is definitely the most unfair part, which he understands. Of course on an emotional level, Jayce wanted Viktor to just pick him. Them over anything else. It had been that simple for him, and it is difficult not to feel pain over that. Rational understanding or not, it hurts.
"I love you. Never forget that. But maybe you need to take some time to think over everything. You just had a huge life change. And some heavy news." Jayce's death should be heavy to him too, but it's complicated. "I'm not giving you any ultimatum. Rest and consider it."
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"I'm sure you think it'll be different because it's you doing it, but you also wanted to keep the Hexcore despite all the reasons not to." Viktor gets blinded by his own arrogance, same as Jayce sometimes, and his certainty somehow he can do better than everyone else. Jayce just knows it's false. And he'd rather Viktor not have to actually experience the full from grace that he did in order to get there. It's not fun.
Jayce unravels from Viktor's grip but only so he can turn to face him, pulling a leg up onto the bed so he can look at him more directly. He cups Viktor's face in his hands, brushing his thumb against the mole over his mouth, like always.
"I really hoped that it wouldn't have been a choice." And that is definitely the most unfair part, which he understands. Of course on an emotional level, Jayce wanted Viktor to just pick him. Them over anything else. It had been that simple for him, and it is difficult not to feel pain over that. Rational understanding or not, it hurts.
"I love you. Never forget that. But maybe you need to take some time to think over everything. You just had a huge life change. And some heavy news." Jayce's death should be heavy to him too, but it's complicated. "I'm not giving you any ultimatum. Rest and consider it."