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WELCOME TO SOLVUNN!
WELCOME TO SOLVUNN!
Welcome to Solvunn! Bright suns and merriest of welcomes to you! The portal opens in a vast field on the western side of town surrounded by cattle, with a distant view of the bustling marketplace. The first impression of the settlement is one of idylic, country charm. There are no looming structures or crowded streets. Instead, there are cozier houses on wide streets and community buildings made of stone and wood. A gentle breeze rolls across the field and the sun is high in the sky.
There's not as much magic here as in other locations, but it's there. No one will be stopped from entering Solvunn, though suspicion will be cast upon new arrivals. Citizens will be friendly and welcoming, but curious about their new visitors. It isn't often that they welcome new folks- especially not so many at once!
With tensions between the other communities, Solvunn will not be keen on ratting out those who fled Thorne, but with the knowledge that sanctuary will not be given for free. Everyone does their part, whatever that part may be.
Asking questions will result in being told to find Rowan March, one of the council members, somewhere in the marketplace.
There's not as much magic here as in other locations, but it's there. No one will be stopped from entering Solvunn, though suspicion will be cast upon new arrivals. Citizens will be friendly and welcoming, but curious about their new visitors. It isn't often that they welcome new folks- especially not so many at once!
With tensions between the other communities, Solvunn will not be keen on ratting out those who fled Thorne, but with the knowledge that sanctuary will not be given for free. Everyone does their part, whatever that part may be.
Asking questions will result in being told to find Rowan March, one of the council members, somewhere in the marketplace.
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This also means there is time for recreation, which is an activity Estinien has always struggled with. He put off developing interests until just recently, and even while touring other countries, there was always the vague illusion of purpose. Now, it turns out, he's going to the local tavern to watch Himeka drink. No particular reason - just to spend time together.
Early on, Estinien shadows Himeka closely, her being his main social link to this community. It turns out that she has other friends here, both from Solvunn and former prisoners, that he hasn't really met yet. He stays quiet when she talks to them, not wanting to interrupt, and not knowing what he'd say if he did. They're here for Himeka, after all. He's fine just sitting and having a drink.
Once Himeka is fully embroiled in her alcoholic endurance test, though, it gets harder to ignore one man in particular - a prisoner, whom he heard Himeka mention the name of. Amos, was it? They find themselves both watching from a distance as she does her thing, in proximity, but not meaningfully interacting. Eventually, though, something comes over him.
Estinien decides to speak.
"'Tis something, isn't it?" he says, his eyes mostly on Himeka, but flickering over to Amos just briefly enough to indicate that he's the one he's speaking to.
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He's probably going to head west soon, out to the Tertiary Settlement. See if he figures out a way to fit in with the people there. If that's where the outcasts are supposed to go then that's where he should be. So. It's better for everyone, really.
Other people are tough, is the thing. Himeka quickly proved herself to be the exception, from a surprisingly pleasant visit in the Horizon when neither of them knew one another to... her still accepting him outside. He might still be trying to wrap his head around that, but at the same time, he really enjoys her company. Really, really enjoys it. Combine her presence with being somewhere where the entire point is to get drunk and, yeah, he'll be there, watching her trying to drink every local under the table while sitting off to the side, pleasantly buzzed, content to nurse his own glass.
The tall elf guy sitting by him is impossible to miss. It was easy enough, back in Thorne's prison, to see how close he was with Himeka; of course that'd extend to out here. Of course they'd have come to Solvunn together.
Blinks when he actually addresses him. Takes a moment before shifting his position to better face Estinien; his movements would be stiff, almost unnatural, but for the alcohol that's loosened him up some.
"Sure is," Amos drawls, looking back out at Himeka's heroics before facing Estinien proper again. "You guys know each other before all this?"
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Estinien is feeling relaxed by the liquor as well, which makes all of this significantly less bothersome. It helps that, if there's one thing he doesn't struggle to do, it's to talk about Himeka. Even if his stories are generally less stupid than what she's doing right now.
"We met in the final year of the war consuming my homeland," he says. There's really no normal way to describe how they met. It's not like they met at a festival or something. "She was recommended to my people as an ally. Suffice to say, she justified our faith."
He takes another sip, letting it settle as he stares at her.
"...Though, this was not the skillset she employed to do so."
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Though he supposes it was during said war that he forged maybe the closest bonds he ever has in his life, so maybe he does get it after all. Amos nods. Huffs a little in amusement into his own drink at that last remark.
"Getting drunk doesn't win wars, huh?" It's rhetorical; obviously they don't. Probably just make things worse, really, but he's no diplomat. Would be exceptionally terrible at it if he were to ever try. He's more just the guy you tell him where and who to shoot and he will.
Takes another moment to think it over, though. Really reflect on what it was Estinien said. Himeka reminds him a bit of Holden, mostly in the apparent desire to help others. So, an ally? Yeah, that'd probably do it.
"You guys were in trouble and she helped you get out of it?" he asks. Because if that really is the case then. Yeah. He knows the type. ... It's a really, really good type.
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Instead, he nods his head, the distant yet fond expression lingering in his eyes.
"She was a hero of some renown by that point... the Warrior of Light, according to many. The Dravanian horde we were at war with threatened to ravage the city... but she and a handful of others lent their number to our defense, turning the siege from our gate."
"Later, some messy business in another city-state sent her and her people seeking refuge, but she had already earned herself loyalty among my countrymen for her strength and bravery. One of our noble families welcome her in, and from there... one impossible thing led to another, and soon enough, the pillars upholding an unjust war were falling one by one."
A flowery recount, even for him, but the combination of being drunk and being in such a fond mood has him really going for it.
"We fought side by side many a time, and eventually, lived to see peace return to my home. 'Tis only by her mercy that I am still here today."
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... He'd had a feeling that Himeka was as great as she seemed, and Estinien's recounting does a good job of adding even more evidence to the pile. He looks back out at her, the way she's still going at it, just someone who's a fundamentally good person enjoying life. Takes another drink of his own, reflecting on all of this new information.
"And she brought you peace back, too," he says, wonderment in his voice. Amos isn't one for politics, systemic injustices, any of that; he just knows life is fucked and that's unlikely to ever change. Also, where he's from, peace doesn't seem like it's something that'll ever happen. His crewmates care about it more than he does, and he'll — he did — follow along with them, but only because of them. Not because he cared about the actual issues at hand.
... But that Himeka was able to bring about peace anywhere at all. That's no short of a miracle, by Amos' estimate.
He turns back to Estinien. "Didn't even know that was possible. I get why you'd want to stick with her, then." She's... kind of the exact person that he needs to be around, too.
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But then he met Himeka, he met Alphinaud. He saw that they were willing to fight for, and witnessed how they were prepared to hold onto their dreams against all odds. To experience these things vicariously, though others... it's something he knows very well.
"I felt much the same as you," he says. "I hadn't thought it possible, to live in peace. I never imagined an outcome in which I would survive to see it. And yet..."
He pauses, and for a moment averts his gaze from Himeka. He looks downward, more thoughtfully.
"I know full well that the march of history never truly ends. Times of peace will come and go. 'Tis not in our nature to remain in one state forever. Yet... to have it... to fight for it... 'Tis worth all our labors, if only so that a generation may live and remember its worth in their hearts."
He exhales, taking another deep drink. He knows he's being a sap here, but in this, a rare moment of peace, it feels right. Though a new war is on their doorstep, he doesn't want to forget that.
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He can't help the half-smile that graces his features, small and melancholic and homesick and... it's just nice to hear words like that because, well. "You sound like a friend of mine," he says. "Doesn't talk quite like that. Less fancy. Same ideas, though. Always thought it was kinda nothing, but he knows better than I do, so I figure he's right. So you probably are, too."
Because of course the company Himeka would keep would be good, like she is. Doesn't know why she ever spends time with him, then. Doesn't know why Cap kept him around, either. Probably something about being much better people than he could ever hope to be. Which is why they're the kind of people he sticks around.
So maybe Estinien falls into that category, too. His expression falls back into something neutral, moment of vulnerability erased out of habit.
"It'd be good if more places could be like that," Amos says. Means it, despite the simple way in which he says it. It just would. "At least this place seems like it's got something figured out."
He just. Wishes he could fit in here, but that doesn't seem like it's going to happen.
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Even as Amos seems to close himself off after a few seconds, Estinien understands. He feels the same way, really. Though he's gotten better at it, too much softness can be difficult. It's only due to fortunate circumstances and the guidance of others that he's really learned to do it at all. He understands the meaning behind his own words and he means them when he says them, but he knows full well that without an example to follow, he'd be lost.
He doesn't know how to do these things instinctually, like some people do, and it feels wrong to give that impression.
"I, too, have been following the example of others in that regard," he says, shrugging a shoulder and offering his own ephemeral smile. "Without them... I'm not certain I ever would have learned to believe in better things. For the longest time... I could scarcely imagine having any part in it."
But he does now, as uncertainly and as imperfectly as befits his lack of experience. That Amos seems to find any comfort in it feels satisfying, somehow.
"But, aye. Solvunn reminds me of a place close to my heart... and I can only hope that impression is justified."
He has his worries and his doubts, but so far Solvunn has done nothing to earn them. They are not so freely giving that it feels suspicious, but not unfair in their demands. His biggest worry is that he won't be able to do what he needs to if he lets himself get too comfortable.
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Also, fuck it, he's an open person where most things are concerned. Nothing to hide. Things are better off with all cards on the table, anyway. So.
"Helps when you know you're playing for the right team, don't it," Amos offers. Another swig of beer. "Especially when you can't always tell on your own. Believing in better things isn't for me. Being around people who do, though. Helping them. I can do that much. You're still alive, you're still out there doing shit, might as well be with the right people."
He shrugs. That's just what life is: trying to do the least amount of damage to others as possible. His track record has been pretty good as of late, he thinks. He's also alone now, in an uncertain situation. There's Himeka, but this isn't space, this isn't sharing the same pocket of air as a couple of other people, around them all day, every day — he can't spend every second around her, nor around her friend, evidently, and in the downtimes... who's to say.
Though, her friend.
"You familiar with places like this?" Amos asks, bright with curiosity. Seems pertinent now. It's a problem he doesn't know how to fit in, yeah, and he isn't sure what it might mean if Estinien's apparent success just comes to him naturally. Probably means he'll never be able to learn for himself, though what else is new. "I like what they're doing here. Never seen anything like it before."
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Even if Amos doesn't totally understand it, doesn't feel it as instinctively as his friends, the fact that he sees it as worthy of admiration or support is its own quality. They were both making the conscious decision to pursue what looked right to them, even if it didn't come naturally, and there's something comforting in that.
Amos's obvious curiosity about 'places like this' does make Estinien wonder about what kind of world exactly he's familiar with. In some ways, Estinien knows he was blessed to have experienced happiness for a while in his youth, even if that made it hurt all the more keenly when it was ripped away.
"My homeland... while not precisely the same, I can see its image in Solvunn. The way I remember it from my childhood. 'Twasn't a commune, and 'twas plagued by its own war, but... the people of my village looked after one another. Between the struggle, there were moments of peace."
He stares down at his drink.
"'Tis long gone, now. But the people here... I would like to imagine this is what my home could have been, in better times."
When food wasn't a struggle, when spring still came, when war wasn't on the doorstep.
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He listens, respectfully; lets the silence stretch out a little longer when Estinien has said his piece. Kinda seems like a serious topic for him.
Then, "Yeah, there wasn't really any peace where I'm from." If there were any moments he could have looked back upon fondly, they're buried too deep under everything else. Nothing to look back on, really. Just a wholly broken society.
Amos takes another drink. It's not contemplative or anything; he just wants to. His voice is casual, conversational. It's all in the past. Nothing to be done about it now. "It's cool you got to grow up somewhere like this, even if it wasn't always great. Sorry that it's gone."
Which is a lot more than what he could ever say about where he spent his formative years, and then some.
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And he knows that there is enough pain and suffering to go around, which is plainly evidenced by Amos's own comment. It would be easy, he thinks, for Amos to be bitter, hearing about something like that, if he never managed to experience the same. The fact that it's so casually acknowledged gives the sense that he's not, which says something in of itself.
As usual, he doesn't really know how to react to the apology, even though he knows it's probably just being polite. In the end, he just shrugs it off. He's grateful for it, in one sense, but he's also aware of how much that loss nearly ruined him as a person. It's not something that is entirely resolved in his own head.
"I'd like to know more about this place," he says instead, looking up to watch some of the locals as they move about the tavern. "To know if it's truly as pleasant as it appears. But I suppose it needn't be perfect to be better than places we've been before." Especially when Amos is ostensibly coming from grim circumstances himself.
"What brought you to Solvunn to begin with?" he asks. "That man's descriptions left something to be desired."
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Gonna have to start thinking about it at some point, though. It's nonsensical for him to be putting it off as long as he has, but he's never been this adrift before. Even when he was between jobs back in his own universe, he could still find another one eventually. Here? His skillset is several centuries ahead. Not sure what to do with that.
He gives a small laugh — more of a huff, really — in response to Estinien's statement. Sure did. "He said it was reclusive and neutral," Amos answers. "It's better that I'm somewhere like that."
Left alone. Somewhere where he probably won't hurt anyone, too. Or at least where the chances are lesser. He usually ends up hurting people regardless, fucking up, because, well, he's him. Amos gives his own glance around the tavern, at all of the people here he doesn't know, hopefully won't wreck.
Except that kind of seems like a big ask. He doesn't fit in here. Doesn't fit in most places, but this one's not looking great for him, either. After a moment, he turns back to Estinien. "Think I might be heading west soon, though. Tertiary Settlement." He's been thinking about it for a bit now. Just hasn't... told anybody. Not like there's anybody to tell — until now, apparently. "Even if this place isn't as nice as it seems, I don't... I don't know what to do with all of this."
Not like saying it out loud does anything, but he does surprise himself by vocalizing where his mind's at. It's the truth, though. He doesn't. Leaving kind of seems like the only answer, so he'll do that. Better luck elsewhere. And if that doesn't turn out to be the case, he'll figure out what to do then.
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Is he more of a loner, then? Unfamiliar with functioning within a community? Solvunn does come across as a bit familiar, and unafraid to demand cooperation. That's a concept Estinien can definitely understand. Despite the ease he's had in settling into the routine of farm work, these parts where he attempts to socialize like a normal person? Much more difficult than cleaning stalls or tending to sheep.
So, maybe it's not that hard to figure out. He nods his head, thinking he understands.
"I thought of going there myself, but as fortune had it, there was need for us here - found through Himeka's fearless connection-making efforts, of course. Yet, I can't help but wonder about the state of the place they typically send their most recent immigrants."
If there's one thing he knows about immigrants and refugees, it's that they usually aren't given the same treatments as those native to the community. He doesn't see why it'd be different here.
"...If you do head that way, I'd be interested in knowing the state of things there." He pauses for a moment. "Though... if you did wish to stay... I do have confidence that a place for you could be found."
He doesn't want Amos to head off purely out of perceived rejection. Especially if he's becoming a friend of Himeka's.
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Amos shrugs. Finishes off his drink; doesn't see the need to get another just yet.
"She's good at that, isn't she?" he says, looking back out at Himeka. He's seen her socialization skills well on display in the short time they've been here. Really has no clue how she does it. There's something almost wistful in his expression; a blink, and it's gone.
He turns back to Estinien. "Don't think there's really a place for me anywhere. I did find one for a bit, back home. But now I'm here. Tough to think I'd get lucky twice." His speech is plain. There's nothing self-pitying there, more an acceptance that this is what life is for him, and that's kinda that. "I doubt it's that bad. Anywhere with free air and this much open space is pretty much a paradise where I'm from. Could pass word along if you really wanted to know, though. Not really sure how," since without terminals he isn't really sure how sending messages would work, and he's yet to figure out how to get back to the Horizon, "but I guess this world has its ways."
Antiquated ones, from his perspective. Shit, all the resources in the world and there isn't even anything that so much as resembles a central network. Light delay wouldn't even be a factor here either, since they're all on one planet. Kind of a waste.
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Whatever is going on in Amos's home realm, it must be a real mess, in ways Estinien has no context for. He's not sure what to say about that, when it comes down to it. Probably nothing, given how casually Amos relates those details.
Instead, he just nods his head to Amos's correct observation about Himeka, and then focuses on contemplating the logistical issues he's brought up. Normally, Estinien would have assumed they'd use the Horizon to talk, but...
"Have you returned to the Horizon?" he asks.
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But then there's, yeah. His own personal mess.
"Nope," he says, just as casual as he's been relaying everything else. It's not for lack of want, but it's also... not not for that. Nothing bad happened for him his first go-around there. Nothing particularly good, either. It just kinda was. He wouldn't mind going back; also wouldn't force it.
... Although now that Estinien brings it up, there might be a reason to figure it out, huh. If he's going to physically isolate himself, he can still have a way to transcend distances, see the few people here he maybe likes. Himeka, for one. Based on how this is going, Estinien, maybe. It occurs to him he has no idea where Mal ended up, or even Geralt. So. That just brings him to his other problem.
"Not really sure how."
He's barely in touch with his own existence; going back to somewhere like the Horizon might be difficult for him, to say the least.
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As such, he looks a bit puzzled. Is it something he'd be capable of teaching, even in a context more convenient than a tavern?
"I accomplished it through meditation," he explains after a moment. "But I was already familiar with the practice, so I'm not sure if you'd have the same experience."
Amos doesn't sound that eager about it, so Estinien isn't even sure if he'd want to learn, but it also feels like an incredibly valuable tool.
"'Tis possible to meet those who fled to other locations in the Horizon - currently tis the most secure method of communication we have. 'Tis worth attempting, if you haven't already... even if it takes some time to learn."
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He considers everything he says, thoughtful look on his face, before giving him a nod. "Dunno who else I'd meet up with," or why, "but secure communication's good. It's probably worth it, yeah."
He hadn't needed a whole lot of convincing. Point out the practicality of something and Amos'll probably go for it. Which just brings up his other problem: meditation's never been something he's seen the value in. He's already pretty naturally laid back; generally does a good job at keeping his anger at bay. (Except it's still there. Getting out of jail had been as simple as stepping through a couple of portals. There's a part of him that's still itching for a fight.) That comes more from being detached as a person than anything spiritual, though. Or anything remotely productive.
"I've never meditated," he follows up his previous acceptance of Estinien's pitch. Good idea, absolutely no clue as to how to execute it. "I know some people were able to get back there. Probably explains why I haven't. Do you just... like, sit there and think about it?"
He's probably capable of that. Maybe. Shit, hopefully.
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"Meditation usually means clearing one's thoughts of all other distractions, often to focus on a singular purpose," he says. "So... more or less."
He shrugs his shoulders, smiling slightly as he pauses to take a long drink. He learned the basics so many years ago it's hard to remember a time that it wasn't just reflex.
"I had past experience directing my mind to draw from a power source exterior to myself... but in this case, I think the most important thing is focusing on the connection to the Horizon that you already have, and allowing yourself to be guided towards it."
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Still. The idea that he already has a connection to the Horizon... alright. So he'll have to identify that. And maybe he can go from there.
Shit, it's more than he had to go off of five minutes ago. Amos nods, claps Estinien on the shoulder. The smile he gives him in return is only a little empty, only a little off.
"Guess I got plenty of time to practise here," he says. Shit, yeah, he's in a good enough mood; he'll get another drink, waves down a waiter. And, that taken care of, "You been back there a lot? What's it like now?"
Amos had mostly kept to his own domain the first time they'd all been there. He'd also had no memories, which both does and doesn't change things. Still... it's kind of been a while since then. If the lay of the land's changed, it'd probably be better to know about that going in, especially if he's going to have to work to get the hang of it at first.
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He's enjoyed the Horizon more with his memory intact. There's less drama to it that way, and when one knows there's a world outside of it, threats to your well being there are almost non-existent.
"I suppose I grew fond of what I created." He still cares for the sheep there, even if the circumstances of his valley are made to be so ideal that he barely needs to. "Though not all that much has changed since our first journey there. Some new constructions, some things reorganized... some were less pleased with what they had made once they had the benefit of context."
Personally, he liked what he made the first time just fine and hasn't seen much need to build more.
"'Tis... quieter, now. Fewer people are present there at once, with most of them busy with their waking lives. Running into another traveller is a matter of chance, for the most part."
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He sips from his new drink while he thinks it over. Somehow, he'd known enough to create a replica of the Rocinante; it had also really bothered him that he couldn't remember its name when Era— Hime brought it up. But otherwise, for the most part, he'd just existed in a void that, unlike space, had air and didn't have any radiation. It had been fine. He probably wouldn't feel the need to change things too much.
Lucky him, based on Estinien's assessment of what others apparently had to change. Lucky for the both of them, really, if Estinien liked whatever it was he had. Amos hadn't seen, but his words are enough.
He lowers his glass from his lips; idly keeps his hold on it. "You know, I didn't really see a whole lot of anyone else the first time. Kind of kept to myself." Shocker. "That doesn't sound too bad, though. Works with the whole 'keeping in touch over long distances' thing. Hell, you make it sound downright nice."
He sounds contemplative now. Not like Amos had doubted the Horizon's value; more like he just needed an incentive. Estinien's a good sales rep for the kind of shit he likes, apparently. Or at least in this case he is.
"Yeah, alright. You got any tips on how to meditate?"