He shakes himself, but doesn't pull away, though it's revealing enough in his thoughts that he could at any second.

"What if I lose it all?" he says. "Any change I've made, any progress, any connection? Just swept under primordial soup." He doesn't want the clinging emotions he's been trapped with but none of the people in his orbit have met him as he was and he doesn't want to lose them, like he had under Sannleikr's influence. "And if I do I might not even care at that point. Sure, I could say I'd fight to hold onto it, but..." But he might not be able to.

Michael had said he thought if any of them could change it'd be Lucifer, but Lucifer has trouble seeing the possibility with himself at full power.